Self-Love Journal Prompt: Day 18

Getting into a really tough one today: forgiveness. More than halfway through the month. Can’t quit now!

Quick recap: May of 2020 is all about self-love. Each day, I’ll be working from one of the prompts from Tia Harding’s 32 Self-Love Journal Prompts or from The Petite Planner’s 30 Days of Self-Love.

Here’s today’s prompt: “What can you forgive yourself for?

Forgiveness is…difficult for me, at least when it’s self-directed.

I feel like there’s a lot that I should forgive myself for, things whose guilt I have shouldered for years.

I don’t know if I can go into them here, honestly. Not do so and have a good day. But suffice it to say that there is a lot I need to work with Vickie, my therapist, on when it comes to forgiveness.

I’ve forgiven others for things they’ve done to me. And I’ve absolutely forgiven myself for self-medicating on alcohol when I was younger. That’s a big one.

I think the one I struggle with the most is failure. I’m very hard on myself when I fail at things. Like college: I had to drop out. I’ve still not forgiven myself for not trying hard, even though I was fucking homeless at the time. I feel like I should have done more to fight, but I just didn’t have the energy or resources. I need to work on that.

I’m allowed to fail. I just can’t stop trying just because I fail.

Forgiveness…well, let’s call it a work in progress for me.

Have a good day, folks.

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