13,056 Days Alive
I am not up to this tonight. I’m upset and stressed and just… not up to it. I’m going to go meditate.
Take your meds, folks; and hug your loved ones as often as you can.
Of Chipotle and Catharsis
Category: CPTSD
Of Books and Bluster
13,055 Days Alive
1,000+ Entries Written Since PostmarkWonderland’s Inception
87 Days into 2021
7 Books Behind Schedule
5 of 52 Books Read for 2021
Today has been a long day. I woke up, out of habit, at six a.m., as if to feed the dear Mister Spock. But I was able to go back to sleep for about ninety minutes, so I got another sleep cycle in.
Continue reading “Of Books and Bluster”Of Travel and Terraforming Mars
13,054 Days Alive
So today is another day where I spent most of my morning in transit to J’s place.
Continue reading “Of Travel and Terraforming Mars”Of Dinner and Drawing
13,053 Days Alive
4 Slices of Frozen Pizza
I’m exhausted. Today was a super stressful day at work and while I managed to get done most of what I needed to do, I still feel like I fell short.
Continue reading “Of Dinner and Drawing”Of Anger and Acceptance
13,052 Days Alive
So I’ve been doing some research. And I’m livid. Not mad, not pissed off, fucking livid. Because this new diagnosis? It basically means that I’m fucking broken due to trauma experienced in my past.
Continue reading “Of Anger and Acceptance”Of Distress and Diagnosis
13,051 Days Alive
So not only did I wake up around two a.m. violently ill, I also had a telehealth doctor appointment today. And I have a new diagnosis.
Continue reading “Of Distress and Diagnosis”Of Sweet Potato Fries and Sleep Deprivation
13,049 Days Alive
45 Minute Nap on Lunch Break
3 Hours of Sleep
1.5 Burgers Eaten
I hate the “sleep aid” I’ve been prescribed. It takes forever to fall asleep. Then, I sleep anywhere between one and a half and three hours and then I’m up for the rest of the night.
Continue reading “Of Sweet Potato Fries and Sleep Deprivation”Of Chimichangas and Crafting
13,046 Days Alive
I actually did something artsy today! Fen got a new crafting toy and we were both playing with it.
Continue reading “Of Chimichangas and Crafting”Of Time and Triggers
13,046 Days Alive
This ain’t a happy one, y’all. I am about to discuss sexual assault. Might wanna skip this one.
Continue reading “Of Time and Triggers”Of Tea and Taxes
13,045 Days Alive
I finally was able to file my taxes today. I went with a different H&R Block than my ex wife and I used, and it’s been nothing but trouble.
Continue reading “Of Tea and Taxes”Of Practical Magic and Picnic Tables
13,042 Days Alive
3 Butter Tarts Eaten
1 Old Favorite Shared with Fen
Somehow, despite knowing me for almost a decade, Fen had never seen the movie Practical Magic. Until tonight! We watched it and they really enjoyed it.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Picnic Tables”Of Butterscotch and Balancing Acts
13,041 Days Alive
I started my new sleeping medication tonight. Gods knows I’ll just continue to put it off if I don’t. I’m not sure yet the side effects, but I’m anxious and exhausted. Even with having taken a nap today.
Continue reading “Of Butterscotch and Balancing Acts”Of Manzanas and Murder
13,038 Days Alive
560 Day Streak on Duolingo
I’d metaphorically kill for a good Granny Smith Apple and some caramel or peanut butter. Or some grapes and cheese. Just… charcuterie fixing in general seem to be the craving. That and murder shows.
Continue reading “Of Manzanas and Murder”
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