12,359 Days Alive
7,531 Books to Read
I must be getting ready to get run over by my menstrual cycle, coz I feel like crap and would willingly kidney punch someone for some goddamned Andy’s hot fry chips or Cheetos.
12,359 Days Alive
7,531 Books to Read
I must be getting ready to get run over by my menstrual cycle, coz I feel like crap and would willingly kidney punch someone for some goddamned Andy’s hot fry chips or Cheetos.
12,354 Days Alive
Today is one of those days where nothing has gone quite right.
It’s exhausting and anxiety inducing as hell. I get paid tomorrow, but my entire paycheck is going to be decimated by bills and gas and medication costs.
I can’t seem to get ahead.
And apparently that’s my own fault. I don’t make as much as my housemates. And my attempts at finding side work has thus far been not as successful as I hoped.
Things will improve. I just have to work harder and more and pray I don’t burn out.
I’m going to bed.
12,353 Days Alive
7,364 Books to Read
16 Hours Awake and Counting
5 Sunflowers
1 Strange Accomplishment
Did y’all know I’m a recovered vegetarian? While I was homeless, or in a state of weird mental spiral, I exerted what control I could over my life, mainly, by not eating meat. And after the thing with the chickens, I couldn’t eat bone in without nausea and disgust.
12,352 Days Alive
7,361 Books to Read
23 Days Streak on Duolingo
8 Cups of Coffee
7 Analog Books to Read
6 Hours with Contacts In
1 Tired Me
I am so worried about the endless fatigue lately. I had eight cups of coffee today and still nearly fell asleep standing up.
Continue reading “Terrifically Caffeinated Terribly Tired This Tuesday”
12,351 Days Alive
I’ve been ill off and on throughout the day so I will be brief. I’m alive and that’s all I’ve got.
This was supposed to be the 200th post, but I was punched in the face by a migraine that day and kind of just…didn’t happen.
I’m over fifty followers so I just wanted to do a quick shout out to everyone who reads Postmark Wonderland!
If ever you want to reach out, I’m available at TheodoraVanyar@gmail.com, TheoVanyar on Twitter, or you can leave a comment on a post. I’m super responsive to any and all comments, or try very hard to do so.
The reason I started this blog, originally, was because I was mega-super pissed about being diagnosed with type 1 Bipolar Disorder. I mean, I was crying in the parking lot, losing sleep for weeks on end angry. So I started Postmark Wonderland on the 25 September, 2018 Since then, I’ve been blogging at least once a day since 1 October. As of today, that’s 202 days straight and 208 days since diagnosis. My medications have been adjusted three times since 25 September and I think we’re close to finally finding a good balance for at least the Bipolar Disorder.
With the newest adjustment, I’m not suicidal for the first time in over two years. I can’t express how remarkable that feels. I still need to get a therapist. I think I can finally make it a priority.
Since 208 days ago, this blog has also taken on a few other rolls. It’s a recipe sharing device, a reading challenge holder, a writing challenge dump spot, a craft progress tracker, and a book review blog. Since reading, writing, and crafting are three of my main coping mechanisms, they are still rather relevant to the overall core of Postmark Wonderland: helping me find my way to a new normal, a better normal with positive coping mechanisms and good mental health.
I’ll continue to blog for as long as I am able. I’ll continue to use PostmarkWonderland.blog as long as I can afford it. And I’m always happy to hear the stories of others. All we are, as people, are the stories we hold dear.
I’ve got the jabberwocky subdued for now. Now it’s time to head down the unmarked path and see what the new normal is going to be.
12,249 Days Alive
20 Sketches to Do
1 Coloring Page Finished and Another Started
Today has been a great day. I broke fast with Cousin Kay this morning. And since I was anxiety prompted to be an hour early so I wasn’t late, I finished the outline on a short story I had planned to start this evening. That didn’t quite work out as planned.
12,248 Days Alive
7,346 Books to Read
40 Centers Finished
2 Finished Squares
I’m tired as hell again today. Fell asleep on lunch at my desk. Coworker Belle was sweet as pie and shut off the light for me.
12,245 Days Alive
7,341 Books to Read
2,138 Steps Taken
7 on the Pain Scale
An unspecified number of jellybeans counted
For some reason, my pain level is hovering at a low seven. I’ve taken all my meds, but it feels like my joints are stuffed with glass again.
I’m going to bed. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
12,244 Days Alive
9,747 Words So Far
7,332 Books To Read
15 Day Streak on Duolingo
4 Chicken Breasts Used
3 Cups of Coffee Drank
2 Loads of Laundry in Process
1 New Recipe Tried
I’ve gotten a lot done after work today. Made dinner, gotten two loads of laundry in the works, finished two books, and started on their reviews. Continue reading “Many Cups Monday”
12,243 Days Alive
7,343 Books to Read
2,208 Steps Taken
14 Day Streak on Duolingo
Today was delightfully exhausting. I’m tired to the point of pain, but today was a good day.
12,242 Days Alive
7,340 Books to Read
6,227 Steps Taken
12 Hours Till Brunch
1 Nap Taken
I have a date tomorrow!
I went grocery shopping twice!
I’m exhausted!
I’m going to bed!