12,431 Days Alive
Zero Spoons
Today is one of those days where I tried to shuffle the cards of my life and just ended up playing fifty one pickup and now I’m searching for the last metaphoric card.
Fumbled Shuffle
Category: Depressed
Sunday Crocheting
12,427 Days Alive
8,112 Books to Read
$494.90 Spent On Lyrica
Spent the day napping, crying over cost of meds and in gratitude for my wife, and playing with watercolors and yarn.
The cost of my Lyrica is $500 a month. Out of pocket. Until September.
Fucking wonderful.
Drowning Saturday
12,426 Days Alive
7 Minutes and Counting with Hiccups
2 Cookies Eaten
I need space to be unhappy. To be miserable. My Darling Wife allows me this, as do the friends I hold dear.
Bad Brain Day
12,424 Days Alive
I hate days where I wake up and am disappointed to be alive.
I ate.
I’m still here.
That’s all I’ve got.
Tuesday with a Side of Migraine
12,401 Days Alive
8,071 Ebooks to Read
6 Hits on my newest Fantastic Beasts fanfic
3 Cards Pulled
1 Migraine
Today was not a great day. Woke up with a headache that quickly turned into a left eye haloed migraine. I was at work.
I was allowed to leave once I was safe to drive.
Too anxious
12,400 Days Alive
I had a lovely meal with my cousin Kae this evening. But I still feel absolutely drowning in anxiety.
Sunday Update
12,399 Days Alive
8,065 Ebooks to Read
14 Days Till the Cruise
7 Days Till the New Job
5 Days Till the End of the Current Job
A lot going on for the next fortnight. And I am scraping the bottom of the barrel for the energy for it.
Tarot Tuesday
12,394 Days Alive
8,049 EBooks to Read
3 Cards Pulled
2 Doctor Appointments Tomorrow
1 Anxious Me
Tomorrow is for doctor’s appointments out the wazoo. Okay, only two but I don’t care for them and the one I’m going to see is an unknown male.
Anxiety-Riddled Thursday
12,389 Days Alive
8,029 Ebooks to Read
18 Hours Awake
I’m punchy as hell right now. And I have the hiccups.
A lot of the secondary things I do outside of work are much harder or downright impossible without computer access.
It is very frustrating.
I’m not in a great brain space, so I’m just going to go to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
Thoughtful Thursday
12,375 Days Alive
7,784 Books to Read
2,752 Steps for the Day
I am a little overwhelmed and burnt out today. I feel like there’s so much going on in my mind that I just need to be quiet outwardly.
Terribly, Terribly Tired Tuesday
12,366 Days Alive
7,720 Books to Read
1 Metaphoric Spoon Left
I’m still awake somehow. I got some sleep last night, but it feels like of no quality.
Thrown Off Balance
12,354 Days Alive
Today is one of those days where nothing has gone quite right.
It’s exhausting and anxiety inducing as hell. I get paid tomorrow, but my entire paycheck is going to be decimated by bills and gas and medication costs.
I can’t seem to get ahead.
And apparently that’s my own fault. I don’t make as much as my housemates. And my attempts at finding side work has thus far been not as successful as I hoped.
Things will improve. I just have to work harder and more and pray I don’t burn out.
I’m going to bed.
Slow, Slightly Productive Sunday
12, 222 Days Alive
7,193 Books to Read
3 Reviews Written
I’ve gotten farther on Baby Bubble’s blanket! Of the actual tree pattern, I’m six rows of fifty five in. It doesn’t sound like a lot, but you can see it starting to take shape already. It makes me want to create a World Tree crochet pattern at some point.
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