Tag: Bipolar Disorder

Just another manic monday…You’re welcome for now having that song in your head. :)

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12,223 Days Alive

7,194 Books to Read

3 Pieces of Chicken Crusted Pizza Consumed

2 Cups of Tea Drank

1 Piece of Chocolate Eaten

I’m in the midst of an actual creative upswing, so this is just a hi, I’m alive. I’m not doing great again mentally, because I’m hella sad and feeling like I’m going through touch deprivation again even though I’ve been sleeping under my weighted blanket and asking for hugs.

I’m off to do some more writing and work on some more book reviews that are weeks behind. Whoops.

Night all. Take your meds.

Weekend Worries

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12,220 Days Alive

7,169 Books To Read

5,375 Steps Taken Today

So, I’m kind of in emotional shutdown right now. Hiatus from actual feeling.

There’s just the over my head overwhelmed exhausted bullshit.

I just have to keep going.

Empty Cup

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12,218 Days Alive

105 Days Since Daddy’s Death

1 Psych Appointment

I went to the psychologist today; got a new prescription for Abilify that couldn’t be filled until tomorrow.

I feel like…an avocado someone scooped out to make guacamole with. Wrung out. Exhausted.

I reached out to a few people today. Most with success. But now I need to try to sleep because I am bone deep levels of tired.

Take your meds, folks.

Tortillas, Television, and Tired

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12,216 Days Alive

7,044 Books to Read

16 Freshly Made Tortilla Chips

I’m… not doing okay. But I’m here.

Still crocheting. I’ve read two books so far today. And managed a culinary undertaking in making keto friendly tortilla chips.

So I’m going to go crochet a bit more before bed.

Take your meds folks.

Sleep, Shopping, and Some Spirits!

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12,215 Days Alive

6,754 Books To Read

14 Days Until I Meet Baby Bubble

4 Books I Need to Remember to Review

3 Frog and Restart Sessions

1 Entire Digorno Pizza Consumed

I officially said my final fair well to carbohydrate consumption in great amounts today. I start the ketogenic diet fully in the morning. Why?

Because I know I can do it. I want to do it. And for fuck’s sake, I am tired of being fat.

***Trigger warning for content: I am going to discuss my being a rape survivor in this entry.***

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Headache on Hump Day

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12,211 Days Alive

2,526 Yards is Yarn to Make into a Blanket

1 Migraine

Not doing great brain wise, so this will be brief. Starting the blanket for my niece, Baby Bubble, tonight. Basic pattern is here.

Hung out with Amy, at our place. Watched the first episode of Umbrella Academy.

I’m in need of sleep. G’night folks. Take your meds.