Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
13,041 Days Alive
I started my new sleeping medication tonight. Gods knows I’ll just continue to put it off if I don’t. I’m not sure yet the side effects, but I’m anxious and exhausted. Even with having taken a nap today.
Continue reading “Of Butterscotch and Balancing Acts”
13,040 Days Alive
We had Chinese for dinner tonight. And we watched Spirited Away. Well, Fen did. I fell asleep in the chair.
Too tired, tonight. Will write more tomorrow.
Take your meds, folks.
13,039 Days Alive
1.5 Burgers Eaten
I absolutely couldn’t figure out what I wanted to watch while waiting for Fen to get home. So I surfed the various streaming apps and remembered that Disney+ has The Emperor’s New Groove in its catalogue. So that’s what I put on.
Continue reading “Of Llamas and Laughter”
13,038 Days Alive
560 Day Streak on Duolingo
I’d metaphorically kill for a good Granny Smith Apple and some caramel or peanut butter. Or some grapes and cheese. Just… charcuterie fixing in general seem to be the craving. That and murder shows.
Continue reading “Of Manzanas and Murder”
13,036 Days Alive
195 Miles Driven Today
6 Hours of my Life I’ll Never Get Back
4 Hours Alone in the Car
2 Hours of Testing
1 Bowl of Curry for Dinner
Had the ADHD testing done today in Maitland. 97 miles away. Ugh. Dr Fyffe didn’t even bother to meet me, which kind of pissed me off. I got assistant Joy who was nice enough, in an unflavored oatmeal kind of way.
Continue reading “Of Mondays and Mileage”
13,035 Days Alive
Edit: son of a bit bitch I forgot to hit “publish”.
I had a friend over today to help me go through all my clothes and pack winter clothes away for the season. I finally conquered Mount Clean Clothes and got it all put away!
Continue reading “Of Sunday’s and Simple Pleasures”
13,033 Days Alive
3 Cookie Dough Flautas Eaten
2 New Prescriptions
1 Long Day
My arm still hurts like the dickens from my COVID vaccination. But I’m not noticing any ill effects from it otherwise. Except being more tired than usual, but that would be lack of sleep.
Continue reading “Of Prescriptions and Princesses”
13,032 Days Alive
I went to bed over an hour ago. I’m still not asleep. I know I’m tired. I even took meds to sleep. My arm is a little sore from where they gave me my second Covid vaccine shot.
Continue reading “Of Shots and Sleeping”
13,031 Days Alive
I had my meds doctor appointment today. I was honest about how much I’m struggling and how suicidal I am.
Continue reading “Of Tears and Tacos”13,030 Days Alive
3 Cucumber Dill Sandwiches Consumed
My poor team lead Miss Britt is down for the count with a sinus infection, the poor dear. I hope she feels better soon. Work went well today, though I wish I’d gotten more calls done.
Continue reading “Of Dill and Dishes”
13,029 Days Alive
I actually feel like I did well at work today. I did a lot of calls, I think, and I didn’t cry in my car after work. Even had the spoons to make dinner when I got home despite being exhausted.
Continue reading “Of Chicken and Calling”
13,028 Days Alive
1,842 Steps Walked Today
2 Packs of Mushrooms Bought for Under $3.00
1 Final Chimichanga Eaten
So. The synonym of the day is “lifestyle change” rather than dieting. Because dieting has very negative connections in my mind and I take it to extreme and dangerous lengths. So instead, I’m making a lifestyle change.
Continue reading “Of Shopping and Synonyms”
13,023 Days Alive
15 Hour Day
2 Slices of Cake Eaten
I’ve been up since six am. Relatively okay, actually. I got done what I aimed to do this work day and mostly relaxed after work.
Continue reading “Of Pills and Pain Levels”
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