Thrown Off Balance

12,354 Days Alive

Today is one of those days where nothing has gone quite right.

It’s exhausting and anxiety inducing as hell. I get paid tomorrow, but my entire paycheck is going to be decimated by bills and gas and medication costs.

I can’t seem to get ahead.

And apparently that’s my own fault. I don’t make as much as my housemates. And my attempts at finding side work has thus far been not as successful as I hoped.

Things will improve. I just have to work harder and more and pray I don’t burn out.

I’m going to bed.

Headache on a Monday

12,237 Days Alive

I feel… terrible. My head has been hurting all day. I’m out of ibuprofen. The deodorant I just got isn’t working and hurts. I’m… not okay. And that’s okay. I have a follow up appointment with the psych doctor on Wednesday. I can make it till then, I think.

Wretched.

12,234 Days Alive

4th Day Feeling Awful

Still feeling like mildly microwaved death. Apparently it’s just a cold.

But between lack of sleep from coughing and bad reactions to cold meds, I literally want to curl up and stop existing.

And now I’m crying over soap.