12,533 Days Alive
The weather was lovely today. Dreary rain and slightly blustery. I loved it.
It rained most of the day, so what glimpses I caught of the outdoors were of rain and cloudy weather. If only it were cooler and less humid, it would feel like a proper autumn.
I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow. I’m going to try and find out why I’ve been having all of these migraines as of late, if there’s something we can do about them, and if there’s something else I can be doing about my depression.
Change is coming. I know it.
I hope it is for the better. Time will tell.
In other news, I’m trying to get into a better routine. Going to bed, getting up on the first alarm, doing more around the house. I hope I’m able to make positive changes because I personally feel like my mental health is screwing with everything and everyone. I want to be more dependable. I want to be better. I want to find a therapist and bloody resolve some of the crap that I still carry around. I need to do better for myself and for my loved ones.
I have been trying to write more regularly, too. NaNoWriMo is coming up and I want to have a finished draft of something by the end of it.
For now, though, I’m going to bed. Doctor’s appointments make me nervous and it’s not the only thing on my dance card tomorrow either.
Take your meds, folks.
Postmark Wonderland 