Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
13,059 Days Alive
I’ve got a killer diller headache tonight. I’ve tried water, caffeine, chocolate, and NSAIDs. Ugh. I hope it doesn’t turn into a migraine. I’ve got stuff to do this weekend.
Continue reading “Of Coraline and Chocolate”
13,055 Days Alive
1,000+ Entries Written Since PostmarkWonderland’s Inception
87 Days into 2021
7 Books Behind Schedule
5 of 52 Books Read for 2021
Today has been a long day. I woke up, out of habit, at six a.m., as if to feed the dear Mister Spock. But I was able to go back to sleep for about ninety minutes, so I got another sleep cycle in.
Continue reading “Of Books and Bluster”
13,052 Days Alive
So I’ve been doing some research. And I’m livid. Not mad, not pissed off, fucking livid. Because this new diagnosis? It basically means that I’m fucking broken due to trauma experienced in my past.
Continue reading “Of Anger and Acceptance”
13,051 Days Alive
So not only did I wake up around two a.m. violently ill, I also had a telehealth doctor appointment today. And I have a new diagnosis.
Continue reading “Of Distress and Diagnosis”
13,050 Days Alive
3 Pages Done
I picked up my meds after work. I was going to make dinner, but Fen had an evening engagement so I picked up some tacos and headed home.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Productivity”13,049 Days Alive
45 Minute Nap on Lunch Break
3 Hours of Sleep
1.5 Burgers Eaten
I hate the “sleep aid” I’ve been prescribed. It takes forever to fall asleep. Then, I sleep anywhere between one and a half and three hours and then I’m up for the rest of the night.
Continue reading “Of Sweet Potato Fries and Sleep Deprivation”
13,048 Days Alive
1.15 Miles Walked
Reffie and I went to the Van Gogh Experience at The Dalí Museum in St. Petersburg today. I was moved to literal tears, at one point. Not by the images themselves, but by the words. His words; his own struggles and emotions in his own hand.
Continue reading “Of Emotion and Experience”
13,047 Days Alive
1 New Project on the Hook
My friend Alex is currently gestating. She’s due sometime in May, I believe. But the baby shower is in about four weeks. So I have that long to make an heirloom, bespelled blanket for the Shiny little one she and her husband are expecting.
Continue reading “Of Books and Baby Blankets”
13,046 Days Alive
This ain’t a happy one, y’all. I am about to discuss sexual assault. Might wanna skip this one.
Continue reading “Of Time and Triggers”
13,045 Days Alive
I finally was able to file my taxes today. I went with a different H&R Block than my ex wife and I used, and it’s been nothing but trouble.
Continue reading “Of Tea and Taxes”
13,044 Days Alive
Some how I missed a day somewhere and am actually up to 13,044 days alive. Whoopsie.
Today was a day of never ending technical difficulties at work.
Continue reading “Of Headaches and Happy Memories”13,041 Days Alive
I started my new sleeping medication tonight. Gods knows I’ll just continue to put it off if I don’t. I’m not sure yet the side effects, but I’m anxious and exhausted. Even with having taken a nap today.
Continue reading “Of Butterscotch and Balancing Acts”
13,039 Days Alive
1.5 Burgers Eaten
I absolutely couldn’t figure out what I wanted to watch while waiting for Fen to get home. So I surfed the various streaming apps and remembered that Disney+ has The Emperor’s New Groove in its catalogue. So that’s what I put on.
Continue reading “Of Llamas and Laughter”
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