Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,740 Days Alive
I still don’t have enough time in the day to get done everything I want to. Or the energy, sometimes. I try so hard to power through these downswings. It’s difficult.
Continue reading “Mostly Fantastic Friday”
Day two, y’all! Quick recap: for me, May of 2020 is all about these self-love journal prompts. I’m trying to be kinder and embrace a more self-focused positive attitude. It’s pretty hard when you’re battling Bipolar 1’s super depressive swings. But I am on a new medication and I’m trying some new coping mechanisms.
Each morning, I’ll be working from one of the prompts from Tia Harding’s 32 Self-Love Journal Prompts or from The Petite Planner’s 30 Days of Self-Love.
Here’s today’s prompt: “How can you show yourself love?“
Continue reading “Self-Love Journal Prompt: Day 2”
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1 Great Thunderstorm
It was terrifically rainy this morning! Lovely, sleepy weather.
Continue reading “Rainy, Busy Monday”
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3 Flights of Stairs (4 Times)
1 Year of Blogging
I’be been blogging on Postmark Wonderland for a year straight as of today.
Continue reading “Down the Rabbit Hole: Year One”
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5 Medications Picked Up
0 Doses of Lyrica Left
Trigger warning: discussion of suicidal thoughts.
Despite being told otherwise when I dropped the prescription off, Publix Pharmacy will not partially fill my Lyrica while they are doing the prior authorization.
Continue reading “Somewhat Upsetting Sunday”
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1.6 Miles Walked at Work
Honestly, I’m a little toasted tonight. I feel like the raw nerve of a broken tooth.
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7,784 Books to Read
2,752 Steps for the Day
I am a little overwhelmed and burnt out today. I feel like there’s so much going on in my mind that I just need to be quiet outwardly.
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7,720 Books to Read
1 Metaphoric Spoon Left
I’m still awake somehow. I got some sleep last night, but it feels like of no quality.
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7,622 Books to Read
1,677 Steps Taken
2 Hours in the Pool
1 Project Restarted
I’m a little emotionally exhausted today, so I’m going to be brief:
I spent about two hours at the pool. I’m exhausted. I restarted DW’s Blanket again, but I’m happy with it this time.
Good night.
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I am a failure and I want to die most days. Continue reading “Insomnia Interlude 11”
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6,602 Books to Read
16 Days Till My Psych Appointment
9 Days Since I Last Slept Through the Night
3 Bars of Royalty Soap Bars That I Want (But can’t justify literally $30 for three bars of soap when I am this broke)
1 Living Room Vacuumed
1/2 Basket of Clothing Put Away
I am mentally and emotionally burned out. I keep going because I have goals set and I literally don’t know what else to do. But I feel like I’m on autopilot.
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6,488 Ebooks to Read
I am still catastrophically low on mental resources today. I’m barely able to write a text, never mind a story.
Well. Maybe.
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I am phenomenally low on spoon. I wrote 1,100 words today for #FlashFictionFebruary. I cried twice from the pain.
I am exhausted. So. Enjoy my writings. Take your meds.
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