Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,302 Days Alive
6,602 Books to Read
16 Days Till My Psych Appointment
9 Days Since I Last Slept Through the Night
3 Bars of Royalty Soap Bars That I Want (But can’t justify literally $30 for three bars of soap when I am this broke)
1 Living Room Vacuumed
1/2 Basket of Clothing Put Away
I am mentally and emotionally burned out. I keep going because I have goals set and I literally don’t know what else to do. But I feel like I’m on autopilot.
12,287 Days Alive
6,488 Ebooks to Read
I am still catastrophically low on mental resources today. I’m barely able to write a text, never mind a story.
Well. Maybe.
12,275 Days Alive
I am phenomenally low on spoon. I wrote 1,100 words today for #FlashFictionFebruary. I cried twice from the pain.
I am exhausted. So. Enjoy my writings. Take your meds.
12,273 Days Alive
6,440 Ebooks to Read
6 Pieces is Bacon Eaten
1 Migraine Being a Jerk
Both my brain and my brain gremlins are being jerks today.
12,268 Days Alive
6,393 Books to Read
7 Marshmallow Eaten
2 Slice of Banana Eaten
1 Moscow Mule Tried and Enjoyed
1 Really Awesome Night with Stephanie and Tink
We went to the Melting Pot for an early Imbolc celebration tonight!
Just Tink, Stephanie, and I.
We had fun!
12,267 Days Alive
6,310 Books To Read
$40 Spent on ONE Medication (was $400)
5 Breadsticks Eaten
1 Massive Headache and Doctor Appointment
I am so ready for today to be over.
12,257 Days Alive
5,831 Books to Read
16 Days Not Okay
3 Plans Made for Next Week
1 Book Finished Today
12,255 Days Alive
5,729 Books to Read
52 More Goals to Meet
6 Days Until My Doctor’s Appointment
3 Days Until My Three Day Weekend
2 Days Till Payday
1 Cat Begging for Attention Whilst the Other Is Being a Jerk
I’m not having a great day. Neither physically, mentally, nor emotionally.
12,346 Days Alive
5,619 Books to Read
91 Video Messages Sent Documenting Apartment Errors
31 Apologies from Alex the Office Dude
2 Trips to the Apartment
1 Super Sleepy Wife
Question of the day: do you have a favorite nail polish or lipstick color?
Man oh man. The new apartment is beautiful. Except where it isn’t.
12,338 Days Alive
5,352 Books on the Kindle
400 Approximate Miles of Driving For Tomorrow
28 Hours Left in 2018
22 Boxes, Bags, and Totes of Yarn in Current Inventory
3 Art Pieces to be Framed
2 Cats Being Jerkfaces
2 Friends Showered worth Belated Yule Gifts
1 Staggered Filet Triangle Shawl Nearly Complete
We did go see Bill6 and J today! Grabbed lunch at Outback, talked NYE plans, and of their most recent adventure.
Their cat, a beautiful bitey bastard of a Russian Grey is named Renfield. I have not taken a picture of him, because he is said bitey bastard.
12,233 Days Alive
3 Weeks Since Daddy’s Passing
2nd Christmas Since We Got Married
1 Massive Panic Attack
I didn’t sleep well last night. Nightmares aplenty. Of illness and heart failure. Of late night calls and of the funeral.
I wasn’t in a very merry mood this morning.
Days alive: 12,217
Days till I fly to Texas: 2
Night of Hanukkah: 8th
Cats Snuggled in Close Proximity: 3
Things Accomplished Today: Many
Days Since Loss: 5
I am still really struggling these days.
I haven’t really had the time or opportunity to really mourn yet. I’m hoping my trip to Texas allows me that.
Days Alive: 12,211
Day of Hanukkah: 2nd
Streak on Duolingo: 13 days
I’m not okay today. And that’s okay. I know there will be bad days as much as I know that there will be good days.
Postmark Wonderland 