Off Step Thursday

I’m in the midst of an actual creative upswing, so this is just a hi, I’m alive. I’m not doing great again mentally, because I’m hella sad and feeling like I’m going through touch deprivation again even though I’ve been sleeping under my weighted blanket and asking for hugs.

I’m off to do some more writing and work on some more book reviews that are weeks behind. Whoops.

Night all. Take your meds.

Nearly Friday

March 21, 2019 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

12,219 Days Alive

7,137 Books to Read

I’m having one of those drowning days.

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Empty Cup

March 20, 2019 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

12,218 Days Alive

105 Days Since Daddy’s Death

1 Psych Appointment

I went to the psychologist today; got a new prescription for Abilify that couldn’t be filled until tomorrow.

I feel like…an avocado someone scooped out to make guacamole with. Wrung out. Exhausted.

I reached out to a few people today. Most with success. But now I need to try to sleep because I am bone deep levels of tired.

Take your meds, folks.

Crochet and Coping Mechanisms

March 14, 2019March 18, 2019 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

12,212 Days Alive

6,744 Books to Read

34 Years Worth Of 200 Books a Year

6 Pairs of Glasses

1 Row Redone

1 Migraine Persisting

I’m still short on spoons and have a massive migraine hang over, so this will be brief as well.

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Pissy and In Pain

March 9, 2019 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

12,207 Days Alive

4 Rounds of Pit Played

3 Different Pain Medications Taken

1 Adorable But Rude Rabbit

It was Game Day with Britt, Pookie, J, and Bill6. I wish I had been in better physical and mental shape to actually be of any value to the activities.

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Dream, Down, Delightful Downpours, and Dear Friends

March 5, 2019 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

12,303 Days Alive

6,619 Books to Read

14 Days Till My Psych Appointment

13 Weeks Since Daddy Died

12 Books Read So Far This Year

6 Days Since I’ve Touched a Book

1 Gifted Pizza

I need to get back into the swing of reading. I’m kind of completely lacking as of late. Just haven’t… even in the midst of mania can’t be bothered.

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Still Here on a Monday

March 4, 2019March 4, 2019 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

12,302 Days Alive

6,602 Books to Read

16 Days Till My Psych Appointment

9 Days Since I Last Slept Through the Night

3 Bars of Royalty Soap Bars That I Want (But can’t justify literally $30 for three bars of soap when I am this broke)

1 Living Room Vacuumed

1/2 Basket of Clothing Put Away

I am mentally and emotionally burned out. I keep going because I have goals set and I literally don’t know what else to do. But I feel like I’m on autopilot.

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