12,719 Days Alive
2 Chick Flicks Watched
1 Frozen Pizza Eaten
0 Days Without Crying
Today was really rough for me. I spent most of it crying or staring out the window at the rain.
Rainy weather is so soothing, usually. Today, though, I was just sad.
I’m trying not to cry again just writing this.
I know I can move on from the divorce. But damn is it fresh. And I took today off to grieve alone. I had the house to myself most of the day, and have a headache from crying so much.
My stomach is off, too. I haven’t eaten much today beyond some pizza, so that could be it. I couldn’t bring myself to eat dinner tonight for fear of throwing it up.
Tomorrow will be better. And so will the day after that. And the day after that. And so on, as nauseum. It’ll get easier. I’m just in the thick of it right now.