12,431 Days Alive
Zero Spoons
Today is one of those days where I tried to shuffle the cards of my life and just ended up playing fifty one pickup and now I’m searching for the last metaphoric card.
Fumbled Shuffle
Category: Feeling Worthless
Bad Brain Day
12,424 Days Alive
I hate days where I wake up and am disappointed to be alive.
I ate.
I’m still here.
That’s all I’ve got.
Bittersweet Endings
12,404 Days Alive
Today was my last day at the University. It was bittersweet as hell. My coworkers threw me a little going away party and I, thank my not waterproof eyeliner, did not cry!
Sunday Update
12,399 Days Alive
8,065 Ebooks to Read
14 Days Till the Cruise
7 Days Till the New Job
5 Days Till the End of the Current Job
A lot going on for the next fortnight. And I am scraping the bottom of the barrel for the energy for it.
Tarot Tuesday
12,394 Days Alive
8,049 EBooks to Read
3 Cards Pulled
2 Doctor Appointments Tomorrow
1 Anxious Me
Tomorrow is for doctor’s appointments out the wazoo. Okay, only two but I don’t care for them and the one I’m going to see is an unknown male.
Anxiety-Riddled Thursday
12,389 Days Alive
8,029 Ebooks to Read
18 Hours Awake
I’m punchy as hell right now. And I have the hiccups.
A lot of the secondary things I do outside of work are much harder or downright impossible without computer access.
It is very frustrating.
I’m not in a great brain space, so I’m just going to go to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
Working, Weird Weekend
12,377 Days Alive
Too Many Books to Read
So, I’ve been trying to teach myself college algebra. I’ve just started and I don’t know how successful I’m going to be. But if I want to get back into school, I’m going to have to know it and more math to get through.
That’s all for tonight. Sorry.
Take your meds, folks.
Forgetful Friday
12,376 Days Alive
I forgot to post this before I fell asleep last night.
Not much to report here.
No spoons. I should be eloquent, but I don’t have it in me.
I’m still here. Still taking my meds. Still feeling like a slipped cog amongst most of my loved ones.
Eh.
This will pass, I hope.
Thoughtful Thursday
12,375 Days Alive
7,784 Books to Read
2,752 Steps for the Day
I am a little overwhelmed and burnt out today. I feel like there’s so much going on in my mind that I just need to be quiet outwardly.
Terribly, Terribly Tired Tuesday
12,366 Days Alive
7,720 Books to Read
1 Metaphoric Spoon Left
I’m still awake somehow. I got some sleep last night, but it feels like of no quality.
Splendid, Stormy Sunday
12,364 Days Alive
7,625 Books to Read
I kind of just… made it through the day by staying home (mostly) and crocheting.
Off Step Thursday
12,361 Days Alive
7,619 Books to Read
291 Pounds
2 Infected Ears
1 Malfunctioning Brain
There’s a big storm system coming in and it has a migraine knocking at my brain. Continue reading “Off Step Thursday”
Thrown Off Balance
12,354 Days Alive
Today is one of those days where nothing has gone quite right.
It’s exhausting and anxiety inducing as hell. I get paid tomorrow, but my entire paycheck is going to be decimated by bills and gas and medication costs.
I can’t seem to get ahead.
And apparently that’s my own fault. I don’t make as much as my housemates. And my attempts at finding side work has thus far been not as successful as I hoped.
Things will improve. I just have to work harder and more and pray I don’t burn out.
I’m going to bed.
