Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,389 Days Alive
8,029 Ebooks to Read
18 Hours Awake
I’m punchy as hell right now. And I have the hiccups.
A lot of the secondary things I do outside of work are much harder or downright impossible without computer access.
It is very frustrating.
I’m not in a great brain space, so I’m just going to go to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
12,377 Days Alive
Too Many Books to Read
So, I’ve been trying to teach myself college algebra. I’ve just started and I don’t know how successful I’m going to be. But if I want to get back into school, I’m going to have to know it and more math to get through.
That’s all for tonight. Sorry.
Take your meds, folks.
12,376 Days Alive
I forgot to post this before I fell asleep last night.
Not much to report here.
No spoons. I should be eloquent, but I don’t have it in me.
I’m still here. Still taking my meds. Still feeling like a slipped cog amongst most of my loved ones.
Eh.
This will pass, I hope.
12,375 Days Alive
7,784 Books to Read
2,752 Steps for the Day
I am a little overwhelmed and burnt out today. I feel like there’s so much going on in my mind that I just need to be quiet outwardly.
12,366 Days Alive
7,720 Books to Read
1 Metaphoric Spoon Left
I’m still awake somehow. I got some sleep last night, but it feels like of no quality.
12,364 Days Alive
7,625 Books to Read
I kind of just… made it through the day by staying home (mostly) and crocheting.
12,361 Days Alive
7,619 Books to Read
291 Pounds
2 Infected Ears
1 Malfunctioning Brain
There’s a big storm system coming in and it has a migraine knocking at my brain. Continue reading “Off Step Thursday”
12,354 Days Alive
Today is one of those days where nothing has gone quite right.
It’s exhausting and anxiety inducing as hell. I get paid tomorrow, but my entire paycheck is going to be decimated by bills and gas and medication costs.
I can’t seem to get ahead.
And apparently that’s my own fault. I don’t make as much as my housemates. And my attempts at finding side work has thus far been not as successful as I hoped.
Things will improve. I just have to work harder and more and pray I don’t burn out.
I’m going to bed.
12,243 Days Alive
7,343 Books to Read
2,208 Steps Taken
14 Day Streak on Duolingo
Today was delightfully exhausting. I’m tired to the point of pain, but today was a good day.
12,233 Days Alive
7,303 Books to Read
4 Commissions to Finish
1 Missed Day of Work
Peanut was my lap warmer for pretty much the entire day.
12,232 Days Alive
3 Day Streak on Duolingo
I’m a little under the weather, but I wanted to get a proper entry in.
12,224 Days Alive
7,201 Books to Read
489 Dollars Needed to Buy a New To Me Desktop
5 Rows Done on Grey Day Shawl
Got to have dinner with my father in law and Steph tonight. My Darling Wife made Sausage with peppers and onion. It was amazing.
I’m still kind of fried, emotionally, so I’m challenging myself to try and re-engage.
12,223 Days Alive
7,194 Books to Read
3 Pieces of Chicken Crusted Pizza Consumed
2 Cups of Tea Drank
1 Piece of Chocolate Eaten
I’m in the midst of an actual creative upswing, so this is just a hi, I’m alive. I’m not doing great again mentally, because I’m hella sad and feeling like I’m going through touch deprivation again even though I’ve been sleeping under my weighted blanket and asking for hugs.
I’m off to do some more writing and work on some more book reviews that are weeks behind. Whoops.
Night all. Take your meds.
