12,392 Days Alive
No spoons
Spoonless Sunday
Tag: Friends
Monday, But Weekend Flavored
12,386 Days Alive
7,984 Ebooks to Read
1 Mild Headache
I’m physically, mentally, emotionally, and fiscally wiped out by the last week. I’m glad it’s a new week.
Forgetful Friday
12,376 Days Alive
I forgot to post this before I fell asleep last night.
Not much to report here.
No spoons. I should be eloquent, but I don’t have it in me.
I’m still here. Still taking my meds. Still feeling like a slipped cog amongst most of my loved ones.
Eh.
This will pass, I hope.
Performing Arts, Pizza, and Peach Fuzz
12,371 Days Alive
7,760 Books to Read
3,922 Steps Today
42 Day Streak on Duolingo
Anastasia was today! And I got to see family for Mother’s Day.
Silly, Sunny Saturday
12,249 Days Alive
20 Sketches to Do
1 Coloring Page Finished and Another Started
Today has been a great day. I broke fast with Cousin Kay this morning. And since I was anxiety prompted to be an hour early so I wasn’t late, I finished the outline on a short story I had planned to start this evening. That didn’t quite work out as planned.
Fairly Rainy Friday
12,248 Days Alive
7,346 Books to Read
40 Centers Finished
2 Finished Squares
I’m tired as hell again today. Fell asleep on lunch at my desk. Coworker Belle was sweet as pie and shut off the light for me.
Exhausting, Excellent Sunday
12,243 Days Alive
7,343 Books to Read
2,208 Steps Taken
14 Day Streak on Duolingo
Today was delightfully exhausting. I’m tired to the point of pain, but today was a good day.
Contacts
12,221 Days Alive
7,171 Books to Read
3 Episodes of Queer Eye
1 Helping of Bread Pudding from the Pub
I spent the day being productive as hell. The days started with a panic attack at five am. It happens, unfortunately.
Housewarming!
12,214 Days Alive
6,750 Books to Read
22 Guests
3.5 Hours of Sleep
1 Blanket Restarted
Oh man. Today has been long.
Headache on Hump Day
12,211 Days Alive
2,526 Yards is Yarn to Make into a Blanket
1 Migraine
Not doing great brain wise, so this will be brief. Starting the blanket for my niece, Baby Bubble, tonight. Basic pattern is here.
Hung out with Amy, at our place. Watched the first episode of Umbrella Academy.
I’m in need of sleep. G’night folks. Take your meds.
Mania, Movies, & Munchies,
12,300 Days Alive
5 and a Half Hours Worked
2 Movies Watched
1 Bowl of Trail Mix Eaten
1/2 a Disappointing but Free Pumpernickel Bagel
I had work this morning and it kind of felt like the day was running atop a half melted records. Time seemed to lag and jump in spurts like someone had left a record to melt over a doily and then tried to play it, expecting Chopin and getting meaningless screams back.
Mixed Message From the Universe
12,344 Days Alive
5,568 Books To Read
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten
2 Hour Lunch Break Accidentally Taken
Question of the Day: How do you best express your frustration when things go wrong?
Oh boy. Okay. So, today has been a very mixed bag of good and bad.
So Long and Skip-Bo
12,337 Days Alive
5,351 Books to Read
207 Book Reading Challenges To Pick From
6 Days Till the Next Adventure Starts!
5 Games of SkipBo Played
2 Days Left in 2019
>1 Day Till We See J and Bill6 and Give Them Their Belated Yule Gifts
We’re in the home stretch of 2018 here and I have never been so glad to see the back end of a year.
If I had to boil 2018 down and spit out a phrase, it would be “catastrophic amounts of change”.
2019 will be better.
I have to keep telling myself that.
Today was mostly spend struggling to get the hell out of bed.
I’m still having horrific nightmares and flashbacks every damn night. I’m perpetually exhausted. And I’m also stuck in mega fast forward. My entire body hurts. Every joint is in pain and finding a comfortable position sitting or lying down is near impossible. It makes me wish that my CBD pills weren’t $50 a bottle still. And if the visit to get my medical marijuana card wasn’t five times that it would be an option. But now I make less than $2k a month and have to be careful where I expend money.
The weather was nice, at least.
Fog choked skies and smattering of sunshine as my Darling Wife and I raced away from Downtown Tampa towards Deej’s home. Subway was the meal of choice and I heartily enjoyed the tuna salad bowl I got.
The incessant pain made today’s visit a little less fun. I couldn’t help but be uncomfortable but I tried to have fun anyway. We played SkipBo with Deej and their momma. It was fun. And I even won a round!
I’ve got to turn in for the night. My head is honestly killing me.
Take your meds, friends. And never be afraid to ask for help.
