Adventures, Asthma, and An Almost Auto Accident

November 5, 2018November 5, 2018 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ 1 Comment

Days Alive: 12,183

Cups of Tea Had: 1

Tea Bags Shared with New Coworkers: 3

Asthma Attacks: 1, on the way home

Auto Accidents Avoided: 2

Tacos Consumed: 1

Total Word Count for NaNoWriMo: 13,676

Words Remaining: 36,324

I am so sleep deprived. I’ve been up since two am today. Getting through without caffeine has been interesting.

Oh! And I nearly got into a head on collision when someone decided the light wasn’t red enough and they ran it. I jerked my car into the bike lane/right turn lane and managed not to hit anyone. But, the sudden stop and resulting constriction of the seat belt, as well as the anxiety of it, triggered a mild asthma attack. But I’m home now, had my inhaler on me, and I’m fine. No one was hurt, other than my chest a bit. And no one else hit me during my evasive maneuvers.

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Happy Hallows 2018!

October 31, 2018 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

Days alive: 12, 178

Costumes worn: 1

Frappucino Enjoyed: 1

Work paperwork done: 16 pages

Goal word count for today: 5,000

Days until NaNoWriMo: 11 hours and counting!

Days until I start my next adventure: 5

People who got my costume: 0

Times I’ve said “Happy Halloween!”: 37 and counting

Happiest of gestation escape anniversary to my dearest friend J! May they have an amazing day/wedding anniversary!

I’m dressed as a certain Hobbit gentleman today, though the lack of proper binder just rather makes me feel like a fat chick trying to look like a dude. But I guess I look cute. I get to wear my orange corduroy trousers at least. And The One Ring. So that’s fun.

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Dramatic, Traumatic, and Therapeutic

October 29, 2018October 30, 2018 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ 1 Comment

Days alive: 12,176

Days till NaNoWriMo: 2 and counting!

Crochet projects worked on today: 1

Writing projects worked on today: 2

Lunchtime spent with J: 1

Frappa-Whatzit consumed: 1

Positions resigned: 1

I resigned from my job today. Cried in my car once I got to Moe’s, then again at Starbucks.

It was necessary, but so, so very stressful for me.

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Disappointment, Disturbed Dreams, and Decaf

October 18, 2018October 22, 2018 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

Days Alive: 12,165

Hours slept: 4.5

Hours awake: 7 and counting.

Ebooks to read: 4,289 and counting

I’ve been awake since five, and woke up initially at two am. It’s been a fight to sleep lately. It’s been a fight to exist in general lately. Continue reading “Disappointment, Disturbed Dreams, and Decaf” →

Drowning in Depression

October 15, 2018October 18, 2018 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

Trigger warning, suicide mention.

Days alive: 12,162

Hours awake: only about twelve.

I feel like I’m drowning today.

I got sleep, probably more than five hours of it, with interruptions. I still can’t manage to stay asleep for all that long. It’ll get better, but I’ve been up since three am.

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Crocheting, Crying, Creeps, and Coffee

October 11, 2018October 22, 2018 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

Days alive: 12,158.2

Weird Starbucks monstrosity had: 1

Mistakes made: many

Creepy ex’s dealt with: 1

Hours slept: about 4.5

I can’t sleep. It’s three in the morning and I’ve been awake for about an hour. And sleeping fitfully before that. Today, yesterday I mean, just wasn’t a great day. It wasn’t dead in the family terrible, but it was pretty difficult.

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