Tag: Struggling
Thrown Off Balance
12,354 Days Alive
Today is one of those days where nothing has gone quite right.
It’s exhausting and anxiety inducing as hell. I get paid tomorrow, but my entire paycheck is going to be decimated by bills and gas and medication costs.
I can’t seem to get ahead.
And apparently that’s my own fault. I don’t make as much as my housemates. And my attempts at finding side work has thus far been not as successful as I hoped.
Things will improve. I just have to work harder and more and pray I don’t burn out.
I’m going to bed.
Terrifically Caffeinated Terribly Tired This Tuesday
12,352 Days Alive
7,361 Books to Read
23 Days Streak on Duolingo
8 Cups of Coffee
7 Analog Books to Read
6 Hours with Contacts In
1 Tired Me
I am so worried about the endless fatigue lately. I had eight cups of coffee today and still nearly fell asleep standing up.
Continue reading “Terrifically Caffeinated Terribly Tired This Tuesday”
Exhausting, Excellent Sunday
12,243 Days Alive
7,343 Books to Read
2,208 Steps Taken
14 Day Streak on Duolingo
Today was delightfully exhausting. I’m tired to the point of pain, but today was a good day.
Insomnia Interlude 11
12,239 Days Alive
I am a failure and I want to die most days. Continue reading “Insomnia Interlude 11”
Headache on a Monday
12,237 Days Alive
I feel… terrible. My head has been hurting all day. I’m out of ibuprofen. The deodorant I just got isn’t working and hurts. I’m… not okay. And that’s okay. I have a follow up appointment with the psych doctor on Wednesday. I can make it till then, I think.
Slightly Sleepless Sunday
12,236 Days Alive
2 Cups of Tea I Forgot to Make
1 Hour Slept
1 Project Finished
1 Project Restarted
I’m still feeling terrible. But I have work tomorrow and I have my voice back. Steph, the poor dear, is still plague riddled as well.
Wretched.
12,234 Days Alive
4th Day Feeling Awful
Still feeling like mildly microwaved death. Apparently it’s just a cold.
But between lack of sleep from coughing and bad reactions to cold meds, I literally want to curl up and stop existing.
And now I’m crying over soap.
Thursday: Throat Issues
12,233 Days Alive
7,303 Books to Read
4 Commissions to Finish
1 Missed Day of Work
Peanut was my lap warmer for pretty much the entire day.
Zero Clues
12,224 Days Alive
7,201 Books to Read
489 Dollars Needed to Buy a New To Me Desktop
5 Rows Done on Grey Day Shawl
Got to have dinner with my father in law and Steph tonight. My Darling Wife made Sausage with peppers and onion. It was amazing.
I’m still kind of fried, emotionally, so I’m challenging myself to try and re-engage.
Contacts
12,221 Days Alive
7,171 Books to Read
3 Episodes of Queer Eye
1 Helping of Bread Pudding from the Pub
I spent the day being productive as hell. The days started with a panic attack at five am. It happens, unfortunately.
Weekend Worries
12,220 Days Alive
7,169 Books To Read
5,375 Steps Taken Today
So, I’m kind of in emotional shutdown right now. Hiatus from actual feeling.
There’s just the over my head overwhelmed exhausted bullshit.
I just have to keep going.
Nearly Friday
12,219 Days Alive
7,137 Books to Read
I’m having one of those drowning days.
