Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
13,827 Days Alive
121 Miles Driven in the Dark, Rainy Night
5 Games of Mahjong Played
2 Games of Mahjong Won!
1 Plate of Nachos Eaten
I had nachos for dinner at a Denny’s with Mellon outside of Michigan City, Indiana at half past midnight this morning.
Continue reading “Of Tiles and Travel”Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?
In times of strife or stubble, much like I am going through right now, I bring to mind Max Ehrmann’s poem Desiderata. It is a few years shy of a century old poem, but resonates so strongly with me in so many ways.
One line in particular strikes a chord with me to the point of wanting to get it tattooed onto me:
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
Max Ehrmann, 1927
source: https://www.desiderata.com/desiderata.html
That last line in particular helps me. “You have a right to be here.” I don’t always feel that I do. I don’t often feel like I wish to be here. It’s a daily battle I wage against my own brain gremlins.
I hate that I’m suicidal. It makes me feel like I’m weak or something.
All I can do is keep going.
13,819 Days Alive
We’re at our Saturday Pathfinder game and I left my new Haruhi Hitlock, my Strix crack shot, mini-figurine at home. Boo.
Continue reading “Of Haruhi and Horchata”
13,818 Days Alive
2 Empanada Operada Eaten
1 New Mini Figure Received!
The mini-figure for my Pathfinder character, Haruhi Hitlock, arrived today! She’s a crack shot Strix, an owl person, who looks awesome.
Continue reading “Of Dice and Dirt”
13,817 Days Alive
$2,498.90 for One Month of Meds Without Insurance
3 Slices of Pizza Eaten for Dinner
Well, my meds, or my insulins at least, are again financially out of my reach for at least the next six weeks or so. I get insurance on June first. My other meds I can use GoodRx to afford.
Continue reading “Of Insulin and Impossibility”
13,814 Days Alive
3 Spiced Brown Sugar Bacon Twists Eaten
1 Pot of Potato Soup Made
Oh. My. Gods.
Mellon had a pair of plushies made for us: a Bean, me, and a Melon slice, them! They are painfully adorable.
Continue reading “Of Bacon and Beans”
13,813 Days Alive
7 Days of Pills Prepped
2 Grocery Stores Shopped
4 Meals Planned
I hate doing dishes. I love having a clean sink and silverware to use though, so I’ve been doing them little by little.
But gods did the sink need a good scrubbing.
Continue reading “Of Groceries and Gross”
13,812 Days Alive
27 Armor Class
5 Rows Added to Junior’s Blanket
Well, my brain gremlins/depression kicked up again. I could barely pull myself from bed today. And ended up needing a nap halfway through the day because I couldn’t keep my eyes open.
Continue reading “Of Rows and Rice”
13,799 Days Alive
1,299 Days Straight on Duolingo
1 New Recipe Tried
I did not get enough sleep last night. I overslept today but was barely late for work. I had to drink a Monster to get through the day, though. Zero Sugar one, of course, but still, caffeine was needed.
Continue reading “Of Breezes and Bedtime”
13,798 Days Alive
1 Mini Figurine Purchased for Pathfinder
Mellon ordered me an amazing miniature figurine for our Saturday Pathfinder game! Haruhi Hitlock is a Strix (owl person) gunslinger. The image on today’s post is of the mini figurine that he ordered.
Continue reading “Of Haruhi and Headaches”
13,794 Days Alive
2 Grocery Stores Stopped At
1/2 Bag of Broccoli Made
So, I basically made Easter dinner this evening. We went shopping for cheese It’s and broccoli and then came out with over a hundred bucks worth of food.
Continue reading “Of Marshmallows and Meijer”
13,785 Days Alive
2 Hour Nap
1 Hour Spent Reading
Today was not a good day at work. And I have heartburn this evening for some reason. I didn’t get home until late today, because of work reasons.
Continue reading “Of Reading and Rest”
13,764 Days Alive
625 of 8,982 Kindle Books Sorted
213 Kindle Books Deleted
I really want a Kindle Paperwhite. They’re like, $190 for the “good” one I want to get. It’s got 32 gigabytes of storage, it’s waterproof, and has a three week or so battery.
Continue reading “Of Pizza and Paperwhite”
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