12,366 Days Alive
7,720 Books to Read
1 Metaphoric Spoon Left
I’m still awake somehow. I got some sleep last night, but it feels like of no quality.
12,366 Days Alive
7,720 Books to Read
1 Metaphoric Spoon Left
I’m still awake somehow. I got some sleep last night, but it feels like of no quality.
12,352 Days Alive
7,361 Books to Read
23 Days Streak on Duolingo
8 Cups of Coffee
7 Analog Books to Read
6 Hours with Contacts In
1 Tired Me
I am so worried about the endless fatigue lately. I had eight cups of coffee today and still nearly fell asleep standing up.
Continue reading “Terrifically Caffeinated Terribly Tired This Tuesday”
This was supposed to be the 200th post, but I was punched in the face by a migraine that day and kind of just…didn’t happen.
I’m over fifty followers so I just wanted to do a quick shout out to everyone who reads Postmark Wonderland!
If ever you want to reach out, I’m available at TheodoraVanyar@gmail.com, TheoVanyar on Twitter, or you can leave a comment on a post. I’m super responsive to any and all comments, or try very hard to do so.
The reason I started this blog, originally, was because I was mega-super pissed about being diagnosed with type 1 Bipolar Disorder. I mean, I was crying in the parking lot, losing sleep for weeks on end angry. So I started Postmark Wonderland on the 25 September, 2018 Since then, I’ve been blogging at least once a day since 1 October. As of today, that’s 202 days straight and 208 days since diagnosis. My medications have been adjusted three times since 25 September and I think we’re close to finally finding a good balance for at least the Bipolar Disorder.
With the newest adjustment, I’m not suicidal for the first time in over two years. I can’t express how remarkable that feels. I still need to get a therapist. I think I can finally make it a priority.
Since 208 days ago, this blog has also taken on a few other rolls. It’s a recipe sharing device, a reading challenge holder, a writing challenge dump spot, a craft progress tracker, and a book review blog. Since reading, writing, and crafting are three of my main coping mechanisms, they are still rather relevant to the overall core of Postmark Wonderland: helping me find my way to a new normal, a better normal with positive coping mechanisms and good mental health.
I’ll continue to blog for as long as I am able. I’ll continue to use PostmarkWonderland.blog as long as I can afford it. And I’m always happy to hear the stories of others. All we are, as people, are the stories we hold dear.
I’ve got the jabberwocky subdued for now. Now it’s time to head down the unmarked path and see what the new normal is going to be.
12,249 Days Alive
20 Sketches to Do
1 Coloring Page Finished and Another Started
Today has been a great day. I broke fast with Cousin Kay this morning. And since I was anxiety prompted to be an hour early so I wasn’t late, I finished the outline on a short story I had planned to start this evening. That didn’t quite work out as planned.
12,244 Days Alive
9,747 Words So Far
7,332 Books To Read
15 Day Streak on Duolingo
4 Chicken Breasts Used
3 Cups of Coffee Drank
2 Loads of Laundry in Process
1 New Recipe Tried
I’ve gotten a lot done after work today. Made dinner, gotten two loads of laundry in the works, finished two books, and started on their reviews. Continue reading “Many Cups Monday”
12,243 Days Alive
7,343 Books to Read
2,208 Steps Taken
14 Day Streak on Duolingo
Today was delightfully exhausting. I’m tired to the point of pain, but today was a good day.
12,241 Days Alive
7,466 Words Written on Camp NaNo Project
7,333 Books to Read
2 Days Off
1 Crochet Project Finished and Another Begun
I am just about ready to fall asleep where I’m at, so this will be a short one.
12,235 Days Alive
7,310 Books to Read
6 Places Visited Today
1 Nightmare Snare Made
I need a haircut. But damn did I get a lot done!
12,331 Days Alive
100 Points on Duolingo
1 Tidbit Written
Part of a writing Kik I’m a member of had a “writing challenge” to describe this photo as a character.
12,330 Days Alive
4 Hours Wasted Driving
2 Projects Restarted
2 Trips to the Post Office
1 Day Streak on Esperanto via Duolingo
0 Words Written for CampNaNoWriMo
Today sucked, for the most part. So let me talk about yesterday.
Tomorrow I will have a recipe for you, photos from meeting Baby Bubble, seeing Mal (short for Mallard, aka my brother who is now a father) and Bubbles , and a proper post. But I am absolutely out of spoons right now.
Have some poetry I wrote thirteen years ago under the cut. Continue reading “Terrifically Tired”
12,224 Days Alive
7,201 Books to Read
489 Dollars Needed to Buy a New To Me Desktop
5 Rows Done on Grey Day Shawl
Got to have dinner with my father in law and Steph tonight. My Darling Wife made Sausage with peppers and onion. It was amazing.
I’m still kind of fried, emotionally, so I’m challenging myself to try and re-engage.
12,223 Days Alive
7,194 Books to Read
3 Pieces of Chicken Crusted Pizza Consumed
2 Cups of Tea Drank
1 Piece of Chocolate Eaten
I’m in the midst of an actual creative upswing, so this is just a hi, I’m alive. I’m not doing great again mentally, because I’m hella sad and feeling like I’m going through touch deprivation again even though I’ve been sleeping under my weighted blanket and asking for hugs.
I’m off to do some more writing and work on some more book reviews that are weeks behind. Whoops.
Night all. Take your meds.