Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
13,023 Days Alive
15 Hour Day
2 Slices of Cake Eaten
I’ve been up since six am. Relatively okay, actually. I got done what I aimed to do this work day and mostly relaxed after work.
Continue reading “Of Pills and Pain Levels”
13,022 Days Alive
Fair warning: heavy topics hereafter: it has been brought to my attention that being actively suicidal means my meds aren’t working. I thought it was something wrong with me. I’m not unhappy, per se, at least not more than usual. I mean, I’ve even had some good days recently.
Continue reading “Of Appointments and Apathy”
13,018 Days Alive
3 Days of Migraine
1 Nauseous Me
I left work early today. I didn’t throw up in the trash can at work again, but it was a near thing. I did end up pain-puking when I got home and knocked out after a second dose of imatrex for almost three hours today.
Continue reading “Of Nausea and Nachos”
13,016 Days Alive
5 Jalapeño Poppers Eaten
2 Grocery Stores Visited
1 Slightly Exhausted Me
There are times where I feel if I stop moving, if I slow down, if I freeze up, I’ll keel over. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s a form of mania? I’m honestly not sure. Whatever it is, it’s exhausting. Utterly taxing.
Continue reading “Of Groceries and Going Forward”
13,015 Days Alive
1 Hour Without Power at Work
Today was fantastically frustrating. We lost power just after lunch today. Not for too long, but long enough to be annoying and to throw off my whole day.
Continue reading “Of Brownouts and Blankets”
13,012 Days Alive
2 Veggie Corndogs Eaten
Edit: son of a bitch. I forgot to publish this before I fell asleep.
I’m exhausted. I think I’m still feeling a bit of the after effects of this bloody shot. Everything still aches. Hopefully I’ll feel better in the morning.
Continue reading “Helps when you hit “publish””
13,011 Days Alive
2 Soft Tacos Eaten
I’m eight motifs into the twenty one of the blanket I’m making for Meg, the Jeweled Knot Blanket. It’s going really well. I may be able to make this pattern from memory by the end of it.
Continue reading “Of Pain and Patience”
13,010 Days Alive
1st Dose of COVID-19 Vaccine Taken
So, my arm hurts like hell. Tender to the touch at the injection site. But I’m glad I did it.
Continue reading “Of Needles and Noise”
13,009 Days Alive
I get my first dose of the COVID-19 vaccine tomorrow. I’m not looking forward to it as I’m always afraid of having bad reactions to shots.
But I’ll power through.
Continue reading “Of Immunizations and Illness”
13,008 Days Alive
2 Therapy Homework Assignments
I had therapy with Mx S. today. It went well enough; I told them about the massive panic attack on Thursday and we discussed it at great length.
Continue reading “Of Emotions and Early Mornings”
13,005 Days Alive
110 Miles Driven
I’m in Orlando with Mal and family for his birthday weekend. I’ll post proper tomorrow.
Take your meds folk!
13,004 Days Alive
3 Crying Jags
2 Soft Tacos
1 Road Trip to Take Tomorrow
Today was a bad day. For reasons I don’t want to talk about, I had a massive panic attack at work today. Like, dry heaving into the wastebasket, crying uncontrollably, unable to breathe for way too long panic attack.
Continue reading “Of Crying and Coffee”13,003 Days Alive
I still don’t have spoons. I fell asleep in the living rooms and am just utterly exhausted.
I’m going to take my meds and go to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
