Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,215 Days Alive
6,754 Books To Read
14 Days Until I Meet Baby Bubble
4 Books I Need to Remember to Review
3 Frog and Restart Sessions
1 Entire Digorno Pizza Consumed
I officially said my final fair well to carbohydrate consumption in great amounts today. I start the ketogenic diet fully in the morning. Why?
Because I know I can do it. I want to do it. And for fuck’s sake, I am tired of being fat.
***Trigger warning for content: I am going to discuss my being a rape survivor in this entry.***
12,214 Days Alive
6,750 Books to Read
22 Guests
3.5 Hours of Sleep
1 Blanket Restarted
Oh man. Today has been long.
12,212 Days Alive
6,744 Books to Read
34 Years Worth Of 200 Books a Year
6 Pairs of Glasses
1 Row Redone
1 Migraine Persisting
I’m still short on spoons and have a massive migraine hang over, so this will be brief as well.
12,211 Days Alive
2,526 Yards is Yarn to Make into a Blanket
1 Migraine
Not doing great brain wise, so this will be brief. Starting the blanket for my niece, Baby Bubble, tonight. Basic pattern is here.
Hung out with Amy, at our place. Watched the first episode of Umbrella Academy.
I’m in need of sleep. G’night folks. Take your meds.
12,210 Days Alive
10 Years Ago
1 Favored Poem
I fell in love with the words of John Donne long before I ever giggled myself stupid, high on paint fumes, because of still-wet scenery and a crotchety groundskeeper that wouldn’t let us have the doors open on the black box theater.
12,209 Days Alive
5 Days Till Housewarming
1 Awesome Desk Built!
Today was thankfully a quiet day at work today. Most everyone seemed to be out of the office doing an event to drag in more students. Miriam was unfortunately out, but I’m sure she’ll be in tomorrow or Wednesday.
12,209 Days Alive
It’s my own fault I’m awake. I should not have napped for three hours this afternoon. But I literally lost functional Brian power because I was so tired.
I’ve taken my meds. I’ve eaten dinner, twice if you count the frozen meal.
I need to pick up more low-spoon meals. Like some damn veggie crumbles and make a mess of taco meat with them. And just have frozen taco meat to add to eggs or a salad or into a low carb quesadilla.
That’s a good plan. A mix of meat and not-meat pre-made taco meat. Maybe I can make myself a meal plan?
Something to make sure I actually eat. It is far too easy to feel like I don’t deserve it.
Thank goodness for friends like my Darling Wife, J, Eli, and Tink. They can tempt me with food when I don’t feel like existing.
12,208 Days Alive
6 Days Until the Housewarming
1 Tire Changed
In less than a week, we will be having our housewarming party! I am excited.
12,207 Days Alive
4 Rounds of Pit Played
3 Different Pain Medications Taken
1 Adorable But Rude Rabbit
It was Game Day with Britt, Pookie, J, and Bill6. I wish I had been in better physical and mental shape to actually be of any value to the activities.
12,206 Days Alive
6,681 Books To Read
2 Panic Attacks
1 Still Useless Car
Today was… to put it in a fancy form for my own amusement?
12,205 Days Alive
6,671 Books to Read
47 Minutes Alone
6 Meatballs Eaten
2 Books Read
1 Helena Towed
Today has been… interesting.
12,304 Days Alive
6,620 Books to Read
1 Flat Tire
1 Missing Lug Nut Lock Key
My morning started with a flat tire as soon as I got to work.
12,303 Days Alive
6,619 Books to Read
14 Days Till My Psych Appointment
13 Weeks Since Daddy Died
12 Books Read So Far This Year
6 Days Since I’ve Touched a Book
1 Gifted Pizza
I need to get back into the swing of reading. I’m kind of completely lacking as of late. Just haven’t… even in the midst of mania can’t be bothered.
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