14,787 Days Alive
2,223 Days Straight on Duolingo
$86.47 Due for My January Health Insurance Premium
40th Winter Solstice I Have Lived
3 Hours Or Less Sleep Gotten
1 Burnt Out Self
I fell asleep after six am and was up again by ten a.m. For whatever reason, even with my anti-anxiety meds, sleep evades me.
Maybe it’s just a weird seasonal depression symptom or something? Exhaustion with no good rest? Or maybe it’s just anxiety kicking my ass.
I am going to do the best I can this week, since I’m only working two days of it, but man is it hard to focus.
Like, right now? Super fucking sad. I miss being able to find joy in just about anything. And I absolutely miss being able to laugh without it feeling hollow.
Yes. It is likely depression. But I don’t have insurance until 1st January, 2026. So. All I can do is my best to keep going.
At least I’m looking forward to whatever new holiday traditions Lucian, Brian, and I cook up together.
I also received one of the items I asked for off my holiday wish list: tiny resin turtles I plan to leave all over the office. That makes me smile just a little bit.
My head feels like there’s an ice pick buried in it.
Take your meds, folks.
Postmark Wonderland 