Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
13,036 Days Alive
195 Miles Driven Today
6 Hours of my Life I’ll Never Get Back
4 Hours Alone in the Car
2 Hours of Testing
1 Bowl of Curry for Dinner
Had the ADHD testing done today in Maitland. 97 miles away. Ugh. Dr Fyffe didn’t even bother to meet me, which kind of pissed me off. I got assistant Joy who was nice enough, in an unflavored oatmeal kind of way.
Continue reading “Of Mondays and Mileage”
13,026 Days Alive
Today was awful and I don’t want to talk about it. The highlight of my day was watching the Lakia film Paranorman.
Continue reading “Of Paranoia and Paranorman”
12,997 Days Alive
519 Day Streak On Duolingo
$20 Won at the Work BINGO Game
I’m falling asleep trying to read a Neil Gaiman story, so I’ll make this quick.
Continue reading “Of Bingo and Blankets”
12,996 Days Alive
2 Burritos Eaten
1 Movie Watched
1/2 A Round Completed on Little Bee’s Blanket
I’m still working on Little Bee’s blanket. I’m still eleven rows + the border from done. I’m not sure the border I’m going to do yet, but it’ll be nice. And hopefully done in the next week or so.
Continue reading “Of Cartoons and Crafting”
12,985 Days Alive
779 Words Written Today
Spent the day with darling Reffie today. Even got some writing done.
Continue reading “Of Tenacity and Tarot”
12,976 Days Alive
2 Pieces of Naan Eaten
1 Massive Crying Jag
I sat in my car and cried when I got home from work today. I’m so afraid of losing my job. I’m so frustrated that it seems like I’m not getting a second stimulus payment. I’m so tired of being tired again.
Continue reading “Of Fury and Fear”12,975 Days Alive
2 Days Till Payday
1 Shot of Peach Vodka
There is great disturbances in the United States right now. Some white terrorists stormed the Capital Building earlier today and ransacked the place. They were not treated as the BLM protestors were. At all. And I am shaking in rage at the unfairness of it all.
So I’m going to focus on what I can control.
Continue reading “Of Vodka and Violence”
12,967 Days Alive
2 Episodes of Iron Chef America
1 Amazing Belated Yule Gift from DW
I feel like I started the day chugging along like a locomotive and ended the day feeling as if I had been run over by said locomotive. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Chalice and Chocolate”
21,768 Words on My NaNovel So Far
12,931 Days Alive
I went out today. Into the real world. I was trying to find a specific calendar I wanted through not-Amazon but failed because Barnes and Noble let me down.
Continue reading “Of Weariness and Wordcount”
12,914 Days Alive
1 Cup of Tea Enjoyed
I’m exhausted by all the ugliness in the world right now. Biden still hasn’t formally son, Trump hasn’t formally lost and there are idiots in droves.
Continue reading “Of Tea and Tiredness”
12,905 Days Alive
Had therapy today. Didn’t feel too great before it and felt even worse after it. I tried doing art or playing video games to distract myself. It didn’t work.
I’m tired of things being so difficult. It’ll get better, I know. But I feel like Im fighting an uphill battle right now and it’s exhausting.
I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
12,887 Days Alive
1 Cookie Eaten
Trigger warning: discussion of suicidal thoughts.
I’m exhausted. And really struggling tonight. The mental radio is stuck on the “no one wants you around, please kill yourself to lessen the inconvenience that you are” station.
Continue reading “Of Ghosts and Giggles”
12,834 Days Alive
Today was bad. All around bad. I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
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