Category: Depressed

Pleasantries, Perspective, Pain Meds, and PBJ

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

Days Alive: 12,185

Word Count For NaNoWriMo: 15,515

Words Left to Write For NaNoWriMo: 34,485

Laps Around the Campus Building Today: 7

Times I Said “Pleased to meet you!”: 27

Slices of Supreme Pizza Eaten: 2

Episodes of Bake Off Watched: 2

Hot Cocoa Kisses Eaten: 4

The third day of my new adventure was lovely! I got the official tour of the facility. Met so many people… whose names I have nearly all immediately forgotten. Ah well. Miriam tried her best.

I wish I could offer some cheerful tripe about how my awesome night of sleep made for an amazing morning, a cheerful day at work, an easy day, and restful evening. But all I can say is that work was good, and I am in vision darkening levels of pain.

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Brain Gremlins and Babes

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ 1 Comment

Days alive: 12,182

Words Written for NaNoWriMo So Far: 12,666

Words Left to Write for NaNoWriMo: 37,334

Adventures Had Today: 2

Suicidal Thoughts Today: dozens

Cups of Tea Had: 4 (sweet, chilled kind)

Cats Being Clingy Meowing Jerks: 3

Rough mental day, but I got some pretty nice pictures out of it! Warning, I am currently struggling with suicidal issues. You may want to skip this read.

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Today is Not Pretty

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ 1 Comment

Days alive: 12, 179

Day of NaNoWriMo: 1

Words Left to Write Today: 1,310

Words Left to Write for the Month: 49,643

Times I’ve Cried Today: 9

Days Till My Next Adventure: 4

Things I Did other than Write: 19

So far today, I’ve been bizarrely non-productive, or at least busy and not doing what I should be? I’m not having a great mental health day. I barely slept last night. I think I read most of a 100k word count fanfic because I couldn’t bloody sleep.

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Happy Hallows 2018!

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

Days alive: 12, 178

Costumes worn: 1

Frappucino Enjoyed: 1

Work paperwork done: 16 pages

Goal word count for today: 5,000

Days until NaNoWriMo: 11 hours and counting!

Days until I start my next adventure: 5

People who got my costume: 0

Times I’ve said “Happy Halloween!”: 37 and counting

 

Happiest of gestation escape anniversary to my dearest friend J! May they have an amazing day/wedding anniversary!

I’m dressed as a certain Hobbit gentleman today, though the lack of proper binder just rather makes me feel like a fat chick trying to look like a dude. But I guess I look cute. I get to wear my orange corduroy trousers at least. And The One Ring. So that’s fun.

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Sweets, Stories, and Spock

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ 1 Comment

Days alive: 12,174

Hours slept: 5.5 hours

Games played today: 4 and counting

Cookies had: 5

Panic attacks had: 2

Days till NaNoWriMo: 4 and counting!

Crochet projects restarted: 1

Days till my Darling Wife’s birthday: 2

It’s Game Day at my friends, hosted by a hubby and wife pair we all know, Jay and Sunflower, along with Bill6, my Darling Wife, and J. An amazing amount of spooky themed food and games. Continue reading “Sweets, Stories, and Spock” →