Days alive: 12,192
Hours slept: not enough
I am awake again. We went to bed a little after 9pm. And for the third night in a row, here I am awake. Aware. Staring at the damned ceiling wishing I was asleep.
Insomnia Interlude 6
Tag: Can’t Sleep
Revolutions, Reflections, and Reality
Days alive: 12,190
Wedding Anniversary: 1st!
Cats Camped Out For Skritches: 2
Words Written for NaNoWriMo: 0
Words Left to Write: 32,956
Rows Left in Shawl Main Segment: 17
No writing done today. But its our first Wedding Anniversary! We low-keyed this year: Subway and Netflix.
Es-ka-peh? Funny, it’s spelled just like “escape”!
Days alive: 12,188
Total Words Written for NaNoWriMo: 16,682
Words Remaining: 33,318
Escape Games Won: 3 and counting!
Time Remaining This Time: 1 minute, 38 seconds
Panic Attacks Had: 3
Shrimp Found in the Potatoes: 6
Plans for Tomorrow: 1 restful one
Housewarming Parties Attended: 1
Time Spent Mocking Movies: at least 1 hour, 31 minutes
Miles Traveled Today: about 200
Man, oh, man, was today a blast! So much happened.
Continue reading “Es-ka-peh? Funny, it’s spelled just like “escape”!”
Adventures, Asthma, and An Almost Auto Accident
Days Alive: 12,183
Cups of Tea Had: 1
Tea Bags Shared with New Coworkers: 3
Asthma Attacks: 1, on the way home
Auto Accidents Avoided: 2
Tacos Consumed: 1
Total Word Count for NaNoWriMo: 13,676
Words Remaining: 36,324
I am so sleep deprived. I’ve been up since two am today. Getting through without caffeine has been interesting.
Oh! And I nearly got into a head on collision when someone decided the light wasn’t red enough and they ran it. I jerked my car into the bike lane/right turn lane and managed not to hit anyone. But, the sudden stop and resulting constriction of the seat belt, as well as the anxiety of it, triggered a mild asthma attack. But I’m home now, had my inhaler on me, and I’m fine. No one was hurt, other than my chest a bit. And no one else hit me during my evasive maneuvers.
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Brain Gremlins and Babes
Days alive: 12,182
Words Written for NaNoWriMo So Far: 12,666
Words Left to Write for NaNoWriMo: 37,334
Adventures Had Today: 2
Suicidal Thoughts Today: dozens
Cups of Tea Had: 4 (sweet, chilled kind)
Cats Being Clingy Meowing Jerks: 3
Rough mental day, but I got some pretty nice pictures out of it! Warning, I am currently struggling with suicidal issues. You may want to skip this read.
Early to Rise
Days alive: 12,172
Days till NaNoWriMo: 6 and counting
Cats asleep on me right now: all 3
Months since diagnosis as Bipolar 1: 1
Hours slept: less than 4.5
It has officially been one month since my diagnosis as having bipolar one disorder.
I still hate it. Continue reading “Early to Rise”
Awake in the Gloaming
Days alive: 12,167
Hours slept: 5.5
Woke up at: 0430
Days till NaNoWriMo: 11 and counting
I apparently accidentally set an alarm for 4:30 in the morning. And then realized my dreams of my alarm going off at three and four am were likely happening. But I was in the middle of a flashback driven nightmare, so going back to sleep wasn’t an option. As such, I’ve been up since.
Insomnia Interlude 4
Days alive: 12,166.1
Hours slept: 2.5
Cats asleep on my right now: 3
Times I’ve done NaNoWriMo: 10
Times I’ve actually completed a novel: 0
Can’t sleep. Don’t want to read. Just kind of staring at the ceiling waiting for the alarm to go off in… whatever hours.
Disappointment, Disturbed Dreams, and Decaf
Days Alive: 12,165
Hours slept: 4.5
Hours awake: 7 and counting.
Ebooks to read: 4,289 and counting
I’ve been awake since five, and woke up initially at two am. It’s been a fight to sleep lately. It’s been a fight to exist in general lately. Continue reading “Disappointment, Disturbed Dreams, and Decaf”
Sunrise and Samhain
Days Alive: 12,164
Ebooks check out from the library: 6
Lipsticks tried: 3
Halloween costumes completed: 1
Jumpsuits owner now: 3
Story elements plotted: many!
Yesterday was fantastically productive. J and I met up after work for a touch of thrifting and some story plotting.
Sleepy, Sleepy Sunday
Days alive: 12,161
Projects worked on: 4 and counting
Naps taken: 1
Shopping trips completed: 1
Things left to do: so many.
Cliches laughed at: 2
Today has been pretty productive. I’ve been up since 6am or so. Just couldn’t go back to sleep. I keep having dreams that my alarm is going off. It it’s at one or two am, when it isn’t actually going off. It wakes me anyway. Continue reading “Sleepy, Sleepy Sunday”
Sleepy, Sleepy Sunday
Days alive: 12,161
Projects worked on: 4 and counting
Naps taken: 1
Shopping trips completed: 1
Things left to do: so many.
Cliches laughed at: 2
Today has been pretty productive. I’ve been up since 6am or so. Just couldn’t go back to sleep. I keep having dreams that my alarm is going off. It it’s at one or two am, when it isn’t actually going off. It wakes me anyway. Continue reading “Sleepy, Sleepy Sunday”
Crocheting, Crying, Creeps, and Coffee
Days alive: 12,158.2
Weird Starbucks monstrosity had: 1
Mistakes made: many
Creepy ex’s dealt with: 1
Hours slept: about 4.5
I can’t sleep. It’s three in the morning and I’ve been awake for about an hour. And sleeping fitfully before that. Today, yesterday I mean, just wasn’t a great day. It wasn’t dead in the family terrible, but it was pretty difficult.
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