Tag: Insomnia

Insomnia Interlude 10

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12,209 Days Alive

It’s my own fault I’m awake. I should not have napped for three hours this afternoon. But I literally lost functional Brian power because I was so tired.

I’ve taken my meds. I’ve eaten dinner, twice if you count the frozen meal.

I need to pick up more low-spoon meals. Like some damn veggie crumbles and make a mess of taco meat with them. And just have frozen taco meat to add to eggs or a salad or into a low carb quesadilla.

That’s a good plan. A mix of meat and not-meat pre-made taco meat. Maybe I can make myself a meal plan?

Something to make sure I actually eat. It is far too easy to feel like I don’t deserve it.

Thank goodness for friends like my Darling Wife, J, Eli, and Tink. They can tempt me with food when I don’t feel like existing.

Dream, Down, Delightful Downpours, and Dear Friends

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12,303 Days Alive

6,619 Books to Read

14 Days Till My Psych Appointment

13 Weeks Since Daddy Died

12 Books Read So Far This Year

6 Days Since I’ve Touched a Book

1 Gifted Pizza

I need to get back into the swing of reading. I’m kind of completely lacking as of late. Just haven’t… even in the midst of mania can’t be bothered.

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Still Here on a Monday

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12,302 Days Alive

6,602 Books to Read

16 Days Till My Psych Appointment

9 Days Since I Last Slept Through the Night

3 Bars of Royalty Soap Bars That I Want (But can’t justify literally $30 for three bars of soap when I am this broke)

1 Living Room Vacuumed

1/2 Basket of Clothing Put Away

I am mentally and emotionally burned out. I keep going because I have goals set and I literally don’t know what else to do. But I feel like I’m on autopilot.

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So-Called Sunday

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12,301 Days Alive

My weekend isn’t over yet. I have tomorrow off. I’m… I don’t know if I will sleep tonight.

I will try.

I saw a raccoon this evening. Maybe he means that my problem solving skills or adaptability will come to use this week.

I’ll stay up a bit and crochet some more.

Mania, Movies, & Munchies,

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12,300 Days Alive

5 and a Half Hours Worked

2 Movies Watched

1 Bowl of Trail Mix Eaten

1/2 a Disappointing but Free Pumpernickel Bagel

I had work this morning and it kind of felt like the day was running atop a half melted records. Time seemed to lag and jump in spurts like someone had left a record to melt over a doily and then tried to play it, expecting Chopin and getting meaningless screams back.

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