Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,224 Days Alive
7,201 Books to Read
489 Dollars Needed to Buy a New To Me Desktop
5 Rows Done on Grey Day Shawl
Got to have dinner with my father in law and Steph tonight. My Darling Wife made Sausage with peppers and onion. It was amazing.
I’m still kind of fried, emotionally, so I’m challenging myself to try and re-engage.
12,221 Days Alive
7,171 Books to Read
3 Episodes of Queer Eye
1 Helping of Bread Pudding from the Pub
I spent the day being productive as hell. The days started with a panic attack at five am. It happens, unfortunately.
12,220 Days Alive
7,169 Books To Read
5,375 Steps Taken Today
So, I’m kind of in emotional shutdown right now. Hiatus from actual feeling.
There’s just the over my head overwhelmed exhausted bullshit.
I just have to keep going.
12,219 Days Alive
7,137 Books to Read
I’m having one of those drowning days.
12,218 Days Alive
105 Days Since Daddy’s Death
1 Psych Appointment
I went to the psychologist today; got a new prescription for Abilify that couldn’t be filled until tomorrow.
I feel like…an avocado someone scooped out to make guacamole with. Wrung out. Exhausted.
I reached out to a few people today. Most with success. But now I need to try to sleep because I am bone deep levels of tired.
Take your meds, folks.
12,215 Days Alive
6,754 Books To Read
14 Days Until I Meet Baby Bubble
4 Books I Need to Remember to Review
3 Frog and Restart Sessions
1 Entire Digorno Pizza Consumed
I officially said my final fair well to carbohydrate consumption in great amounts today. I start the ketogenic diet fully in the morning. Why?
Because I know I can do it. I want to do it. And for fuck’s sake, I am tired of being fat.
***Trigger warning for content: I am going to discuss my being a rape survivor in this entry.***
12,212 Days Alive
6,744 Books to Read
34 Years Worth Of 200 Books a Year
6 Pairs of Glasses
1 Row Redone
1 Migraine Persisting
I’m still short on spoons and have a massive migraine hang over, so this will be brief as well.
12,211 Days Alive
2,526 Yards is Yarn to Make into a Blanket
1 Migraine
Not doing great brain wise, so this will be brief. Starting the blanket for my niece, Baby Bubble, tonight. Basic pattern is here.
Hung out with Amy, at our place. Watched the first episode of Umbrella Academy.
I’m in need of sleep. G’night folks. Take your meds.
12,209 Days Alive
5 Days Till Housewarming
1 Awesome Desk Built!
Today was thankfully a quiet day at work today. Most everyone seemed to be out of the office doing an event to drag in more students. Miriam was unfortunately out, but I’m sure she’ll be in tomorrow or Wednesday.
12,208 Days Alive
6 Days Until the Housewarming
1 Tire Changed
In less than a week, we will be having our housewarming party! I am excited.
12,207 Days Alive
4 Rounds of Pit Played
3 Different Pain Medications Taken
1 Adorable But Rude Rabbit
It was Game Day with Britt, Pookie, J, and Bill6. I wish I had been in better physical and mental shape to actually be of any value to the activities.
12,304 Days Alive
6,620 Books to Read
1 Flat Tire
1 Missing Lug Nut Lock Key
My morning started with a flat tire as soon as I got to work.
12,303 Days Alive
6,619 Books to Read
14 Days Till My Psych Appointment
13 Weeks Since Daddy Died
12 Books Read So Far This Year
6 Days Since I’ve Touched a Book
1 Gifted Pizza
I need to get back into the swing of reading. I’m kind of completely lacking as of late. Just haven’t… even in the midst of mania can’t be bothered.
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