Stuck in Fast Forward

~ Theodora Vanyar

12,667 Days Alive

201 Day Streak on Duolingo

1 Manic Me

I went through all of my clothes today. Cleaned out the closet and went through all of the seasonal stuff and put the velvets into storage for the season.

I’m trying to resist the urge to carve random things into my thigh with the closest sharp object. Even though I know self harm is a Bad Thing to do.

I’m fighting with suicidal urges, too, but my anxiety level is through the roof this week.

I just have to make it to Friday. Therapy on Friday. Meds on Friday. All will be well.

I just have to keep going.

I don’t have anything else, except the desire for a new tattoo right now.

Take your meds, folks.

Published by Theodora Vanyar

Writer. Artist. Laughter addict. Queer, Jew-ish, anxiety riddled, dealing with #BipolarDisorder, and fat. Oxford Comma FOREVER! All else is icing.

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