Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,330 Days Alive
4 Hours Wasted Driving
2 Projects Restarted
2 Trips to the Post Office
1 Day Streak on Esperanto via Duolingo
0 Words Written for CampNaNoWriMo
Today sucked, for the most part. So let me talk about yesterday.
12,226 Days Alive
7,221 Books to Read
3 Days Till We Meet Baby Bubble
2 Pairs of Glasses on the Way
1 Stressful Day
Happy Thursday, y’all. Today sucked.
12,223 Days Alive
7,194 Books to Read
3 Pieces of Chicken Crusted Pizza Consumed
2 Cups of Tea Drank
1 Piece of Chocolate Eaten
I’m in the midst of an actual creative upswing, so this is just a hi, I’m alive. I’m not doing great again mentally, because I’m hella sad and feeling like I’m going through touch deprivation again even though I’ve been sleeping under my weighted blanket and asking for hugs.
I’m off to do some more writing and work on some more book reviews that are weeks behind. Whoops.
Night all. Take your meds.
12, 222 Days Alive
7,193 Books to Read
3 Reviews Written
I’ve gotten farther on Baby Bubble’s blanket! Of the actual tree pattern, I’m six rows of fifty five in. It doesn’t sound like a lot, but you can see it starting to take shape already. It makes me want to create a World Tree crochet pattern at some point.
Continue reading “Slow, Slightly Productive Sunday”
12,220 Days Alive
7,169 Books To Read
5,375 Steps Taken Today
So, I’m kind of in emotional shutdown right now. Hiatus from actual feeling.
There’s just the over my head overwhelmed exhausted bullshit.
I just have to keep going.
12,219 Days Alive
7,137 Books to Read
I’m having one of those drowning days.
12,217 Days Alive
2 Taco Stuffed Green Peppers Eaten
1 Mild Headache
I have my psych appointment tomorrow afternoon. Stressed would be an understatement to the extreme.
12,215 Days Alive
6,754 Books To Read
14 Days Until I Meet Baby Bubble
4 Books I Need to Remember to Review
3 Frog and Restart Sessions
1 Entire Digorno Pizza Consumed
I officially said my final fair well to carbohydrate consumption in great amounts today. I start the ketogenic diet fully in the morning. Why?
Because I know I can do it. I want to do it. And for fuck’s sake, I am tired of being fat.
***Trigger warning for content: I am going to discuss my being a rape survivor in this entry.***
12,208 Days Alive
6 Days Until the Housewarming
1 Tire Changed
In less than a week, we will be having our housewarming party! I am excited.
12,207 Days Alive
4 Rounds of Pit Played
3 Different Pain Medications Taken
1 Adorable But Rude Rabbit
It was Game Day with Britt, Pookie, J, and Bill6. I wish I had been in better physical and mental shape to actually be of any value to the activities.
12,205 Days Alive
6,671 Books to Read
47 Minutes Alone
6 Meatballs Eaten
2 Books Read
1 Helena Towed
Today has been… interesting.
12,303 Days Alive
6,619 Books to Read
14 Days Till My Psych Appointment
13 Weeks Since Daddy Died
12 Books Read So Far This Year
6 Days Since I’ve Touched a Book
1 Gifted Pizza
I need to get back into the swing of reading. I’m kind of completely lacking as of late. Just haven’t… even in the midst of mania can’t be bothered.
Continue reading “Dream, Down, Delightful Downpours, and Dear Friends”
12,302 Days Alive
6,602 Books to Read
16 Days Till My Psych Appointment
9 Days Since I Last Slept Through the Night
3 Bars of Royalty Soap Bars That I Want (But can’t justify literally $30 for three bars of soap when I am this broke)
1 Living Room Vacuumed
1/2 Basket of Clothing Put Away
I am mentally and emotionally burned out. I keep going because I have goals set and I literally don’t know what else to do. But I feel like I’m on autopilot.
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