Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,207 Days Alive
4 Rounds of Pit Played
3 Different Pain Medications Taken
1 Adorable But Rude Rabbit
It was Game Day with Britt, Pookie, J, and Bill6. I wish I had been in better physical and mental shape to actually be of any value to the activities.
12,302 Days Alive
6,602 Books to Read
16 Days Till My Psych Appointment
9 Days Since I Last Slept Through the Night
3 Bars of Royalty Soap Bars That I Want (But can’t justify literally $30 for three bars of soap when I am this broke)
1 Living Room Vacuumed
1/2 Basket of Clothing Put Away
I am mentally and emotionally burned out. I keep going because I have goals set and I literally don’t know what else to do. But I feel like I’m on autopilot.
12,298 Days Alive
6,590 Books to Read
3 Hours Slept
2 More Work Days
1 Hat Finished
I’m exhausted still, thought I likely won’t find rest, I will keep this brief. Only two more days before my weekend! Yay!
12,294 Days Alive Still
6,574 Books to Read
87 Wikipedia Articles Read
8 Episodes of Paranormal Survivor Watched
3 Hour Nap
Since I didn’t get but an hour of sleep this morning, I wasn’t as productive as I wanted to be.
12,280 Days Alive
6,473 Books to Read
6 Roses Bought
4 Ultimate Oreos Eaten
2 Pieces of Garlic Bread Eaten
1 New Squishmallow Owl Plushie
Man. Today was rough. Not completely devastating or anything like that. But I went to bed at… ten? Eleven? I don’t even know.
12,275 Days Alive
I am phenomenally low on spoon. I wrote 1,100 words today for #FlashFictionFebruary. I cried twice from the pain.
I am exhausted. So. Enjoy my writings. Take your meds.
12,255 Days Alive
5,729 Books to Read
52 More Goals to Meet
6 Days Until My Doctor’s Appointment
3 Days Until My Three Day Weekend
2 Days Till Payday
1 Cat Begging for Attention Whilst the Other Is Being a Jerk
I’m not having a great day. Neither physically, mentally, nor emotionally.
12,254 Days Alive
5,702 Books to Read
3 Loads of Laundry Done
2 Hours Slept
1 Very Grumpy Me
Question of the day: what do you use to help you get through the day after a rotten night’s sleep?
I’m exhausted to the point of pain. But I am also accomplished.
12,249 Days Alive
5,672 Books to Read This Lifetime
207 Books Still to Read This Year
34 Hours Until Moving Day
3 Books Touched Today: One Finished, Another In Progress, Another Still Started
3 Carloads Total Taken Up to the New Place
2 Meetings at Work
1 Review Pending Completion
Question of the day: if you could only read from one genre for the rest of your life, what would you pick? What would you absolutely avoid?
By the Gods, today was a thoroughly busy day!
12,248 Days Alive
5669 Books to Read
2 Days Till Moving
2 Box-Deprived Cats
1 Weird Conspiracy Theory Found Out
Question of the day: Do you box things by room or at random?
I am exhausted so this will be quick.
12,337 Days Alive
5,351 Books to Read
207 Book Reading Challenges To Pick From
6 Days Till the Next Adventure Starts!
5 Games of SkipBo Played
2 Days Left in 2019
>1 Day Till We See J and Bill6 and Give Them Their Belated Yule Gifts
We’re in the home stretch of 2018 here and I have never been so glad to see the back end of a year.
If I had to boil 2018 down and spit out a phrase, it would be “catastrophic amounts of change”.
2019 will be better.
I have to keep telling myself that.
Today was mostly spend struggling to get the hell out of bed.
I’m still having horrific nightmares and flashbacks every damn night. I’m perpetually exhausted. And I’m also stuck in mega fast forward. My entire body hurts. Every joint is in pain and finding a comfortable position sitting or lying down is near impossible. It makes me wish that my CBD pills weren’t $50 a bottle still. And if the visit to get my medical marijuana card wasn’t five times that it would be an option. But now I make less than $2k a month and have to be careful where I expend money.
The weather was nice, at least.
Fog choked skies and smattering of sunshine as my Darling Wife and I raced away from Downtown Tampa towards Deej’s home. Subway was the meal of choice and I heartily enjoyed the tuna salad bowl I got.
The incessant pain made today’s visit a little less fun. I couldn’t help but be uncomfortable but I tried to have fun anyway. We played SkipBo with Deej and their momma. It was fun. And I even won a round!
I’ve got to turn in for the night. My head is honestly killing me.
Take your meds, friends. And never be afraid to ask for help.
12,233 Days Alive
3 Weeks Since Daddy’s Passing
2nd Christmas Since We Got Married
1 Massive Panic Attack
I didn’t sleep well last night. Nightmares aplenty. Of illness and heart failure. Of late night calls and of the funeral.
I wasn’t in a very merry mood this morning.
Days Alive: 12,231
Days Left in 2018: 8
Times I’ve Restarted the Current Shawl: 4
Kitties Alive and Well: 2
Naps Had Today: 2
There’s just over a week left in 2018. Change for the better is coming, I know it.
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