Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,261 Days Alive
6,011 Ebooks to Read
3 Panic Attacks
2 Books Read
1 Good Meal with a Friend
1 New Author I Adore
So. Doctor’s appointment today. I stress bought 116 free ebooks while waiting for my meds in Publix.
And finished two books that should have reviews coming out soon.
And successfully defeated Mount Laundry.
It’s been a day.
12,260 Days Alive
7,131 Steps For the Day
5,883 Books to Read
4 Loads of Laundry Done
1 New Ikea Shelf Built
I am literally going to bed so I don’t have to fight with Mount Laundry any more tonight.
12,342 Days Alive
0 Pounds Lost or Gained
2 Days Till Keys
So! We let Stephanie’s Nan know what day we were moving out this evening. As we are wont to do on a Wednesday, we hit up the local Village Inn for dinner. Free pie, ya know; even if we hardly ever get the pie.
Continue reading “Planning, Plotting, Passive Aggressive Pouting, and Pie Night”
12,338 Days Alive
5,352 Books on the Kindle
400 Approximate Miles of Driving For Tomorrow
28 Hours Left in 2018
22 Boxes, Bags, and Totes of Yarn in Current Inventory
3 Art Pieces to be Framed
2 Cats Being Jerkfaces
2 Friends Showered worth Belated Yule Gifts
1 Staggered Filet Triangle Shawl Nearly Complete
We did go see Bill6 and J today! Grabbed lunch at Outback, talked NYE plans, and of their most recent adventure.
Their cat, a beautiful bitey bastard of a Russian Grey is named Renfield. I have not taken a picture of him, because he is said bitey bastard.
12,337 Days Alive
5,351 Books to Read
207 Book Reading Challenges To Pick From
6 Days Till the Next Adventure Starts!
5 Games of SkipBo Played
2 Days Left in 2019
>1 Day Till We See J and Bill6 and Give Them Their Belated Yule Gifts
We’re in the home stretch of 2018 here and I have never been so glad to see the back end of a year.
If I had to boil 2018 down and spit out a phrase, it would be “catastrophic amounts of change”.
2019 will be better.
I have to keep telling myself that.
Today was mostly spend struggling to get the hell out of bed.
I’m still having horrific nightmares and flashbacks every damn night. I’m perpetually exhausted. And I’m also stuck in mega fast forward. My entire body hurts. Every joint is in pain and finding a comfortable position sitting or lying down is near impossible. It makes me wish that my CBD pills weren’t $50 a bottle still. And if the visit to get my medical marijuana card wasn’t five times that it would be an option. But now I make less than $2k a month and have to be careful where I expend money.
The weather was nice, at least.
Fog choked skies and smattering of sunshine as my Darling Wife and I raced away from Downtown Tampa towards Deej’s home. Subway was the meal of choice and I heartily enjoyed the tuna salad bowl I got.
The incessant pain made today’s visit a little less fun. I couldn’t help but be uncomfortable but I tried to have fun anyway. We played SkipBo with Deej and their momma. It was fun. And I even won a round!
I’ve got to turn in for the night. My head is honestly killing me.
Take your meds, friends. And never be afraid to ask for help.
12,233 Days Alive
3 Weeks Since Daddy’s Passing
2nd Christmas Since We Got Married
1 Massive Panic Attack
I didn’t sleep well last night. Nightmares aplenty. Of illness and heart failure. Of late night calls and of the funeral.
I wasn’t in a very merry mood this morning.
5,143.
That is how many books I have on my Kindle between Unlimited, the library’s ebooks, Bookbub, Fussy Librarian, combing through all of the free ebooks on Amazon, and my purchased or gifted ebooks.
Days alive: 12,189
No real summary to today. Did stuff, ate food. Made a holiday wreath.
Days alive: 12,188
Total Words Written for NaNoWriMo: 16,682
Words Remaining: 33,318
Escape Games Won: 3 and counting!
Time Remaining This Time: 1 minute, 38 seconds
Panic Attacks Had: 3
Shrimp Found in the Potatoes: 6
Plans for Tomorrow: 1 restful one
Housewarming Parties Attended: 1
Time Spent Mocking Movies: at least 1 hour, 31 minutes
Miles Traveled Today: about 200
Man, oh, man, was today a blast! So much happened.
Continue reading “Es-ka-peh? Funny, it’s spelled just like “escape”!”
Days Alive: 12,187
Word Count for NaNoWriMo: 16,479
Words Remaining: 33,521
Plans Tomorrow: 3
Plans for Sunday: possibly 1?
Times I Got Lost at Work Today: 1
Steps for the Day: 4,354 + the double lap around work where I left my phone at my desk.
Better today. A bit. I’m doing great at my new adventure. Still sad, a little skin hungry even though I’ve been hugging J at least once a day this week. But the brain gremlins kinda faded to the background today as we had a lot going on.
Days alive: 12,174
Hours slept: 5.5 hours
Games played today: 4 and counting
Cookies had: 5
Panic attacks had: 2
Days till NaNoWriMo: 4 and counting!
Crochet projects restarted: 1
Days till my Darling Wife’s birthday: 2
It’s Game Day at my friends, hosted by a hubby and wife pair we all know, Jay and Sunflower, along with Bill6, my Darling Wife, and J. An amazing amount of spooky themed food and games. Continue reading “Sweets, Stories, and Spock”
Days Alive: 12,165
Hours slept: 4.5
Hours awake: 7 and counting.
Ebooks to read: 4,289 and counting
I’ve been awake since five, and woke up initially at two am. It’s been a fight to sleep lately. It’s been a fight to exist in general lately. Continue reading “Disappointment, Disturbed Dreams, and Decaf”
Days Alive: 12,164
Ebooks check out from the library: 6
Lipsticks tried: 3
Halloween costumes completed: 1
Jumpsuits owner now: 3
Story elements plotted: many!
Yesterday was fantastically productive. J and I met up after work for a touch of thrifting and some story plotting.
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