Days alive: 12,192
Hours slept: not enough
I am awake again. We went to bed a little after 9pm. And for the third night in a row, here I am awake. Aware. Staring at the damned ceiling wishing I was asleep.
Insomnia Interlude 6
Tag: Coping
Relative Disquiet
Days alive: 12,191
Words Written for NaNoWriMo: 0
Words Left to Write: still 32,956
Rows Left in Shawl Main Segment: 17
I should be working on my NaNovel right now. But hell if I can get my brain to focus.
Introspective Evening
Days alive: 12,189
No real summary to today. Did stuff, ate food. Made a holiday wreath.
Es-ka-peh? Funny, it’s spelled just like “escape”!
Days alive: 12,188
Total Words Written for NaNoWriMo: 16,682
Words Remaining: 33,318
Escape Games Won: 3 and counting!
Time Remaining This Time: 1 minute, 38 seconds
Panic Attacks Had: 3
Shrimp Found in the Potatoes: 6
Plans for Tomorrow: 1 restful one
Housewarming Parties Attended: 1
Time Spent Mocking Movies: at least 1 hour, 31 minutes
Miles Traveled Today: about 200
Man, oh, man, was today a blast! So much happened.
Continue reading “Es-ka-peh? Funny, it’s spelled just like “escape”!”
Fantastic Friday
Days Alive: 12,187
Word Count for NaNoWriMo: 16,479
Words Remaining: 33,521
Plans Tomorrow: 3
Plans for Sunday: possibly 1?
Times I Got Lost at Work Today: 1
Steps for the Day: 4,354 + the double lap around work where I left my phone at my desk.
Better today. A bit. I’m doing great at my new adventure. Still sad, a little skin hungry even though I’ve been hugging J at least once a day this week. But the brain gremlins kinda faded to the background today as we had a lot going on.
Pleasantries, Perspective, Pain Meds, and PBJ
Days Alive: 12,185
Word Count For NaNoWriMo: 15,515
Words Left to Write For NaNoWriMo: 34,485
Laps Around the Campus Building Today: 7
Times I Said “Pleased to meet you!”: 27
Slices of Supreme Pizza Eaten: 2
Episodes of Bake Off Watched: 2
Hot Cocoa Kisses Eaten: 4
The third day of my new adventure was lovely! I got the official tour of the facility. Met so many people… whose names I have nearly all immediately forgotten. Ah well. Miriam tried her best.
I wish I could offer some cheerful tripe about how my awesome night of sleep made for an amazing morning, a cheerful day at work, an easy day, and restful evening. But all I can say is that work was good, and I am in vision darkening levels of pain.
Continue reading “Pleasantries, Perspective, Pain Meds, and PBJ”
Curry, Chinese, and Chuckling
Days Alive: 12,184
Word Count for NaNoWriMo: 13,765
Words Left to Write: 36,235
Crochet Projects Left at Home: 1
New Things Learned: SO MANY
Phone Calls Answered: 12
Meals with Loved Ones: 2
I will make this brief as I am utterly exhausted. I’m still having trouble sleeping. Between body pain, insomnia, the unexpectedly large amount of walking I do at the new adventure, and various cats singing the song of their people at all hours of the night, I am beyond kaput.
Dramatic, Traumatic, and Therapeutic
Days alive: 12,176
Days till NaNoWriMo: 2 and counting!
Crochet projects worked on today: 1
Writing projects worked on today: 2
Lunchtime spent with J: 1
Frappa-Whatzit consumed: 1
Positions resigned: 1
I resigned from my job today. Cried in my car once I got to Moe’s, then again at Starbucks.
It was necessary, but so, so very stressful for me.
Stormy Friday
Days alive: 12,173
Sassiness level out of ten: 42
Hours slept: about 5 and change
Crochet projects worked on: 2
Book outline completed: 1
Days till NaNoWriMo: 5 and counting!
Write ins I hope to attend this year: at least 2!
I’m not sure if I’m doing better today. The mental radio is still blaring. Though I am feeling more accomplished, I suppose.
Early to Rise
Days alive: 12,172
Days till NaNoWriMo: 6 and counting
Cats asleep on me right now: all 3
Months since diagnosis as Bipolar 1: 1
Hours slept: less than 4.5
It has officially been one month since my diagnosis as having bipolar one disorder.
I still hate it. Continue reading “Early to Rise”
Intrusive Thoughts this Evening
Days alive: 12,171
Days till NaNoWriMo: 7 and counting!
Meals forgotten: 1
Meals provided by a friend: 1
Cats currently perched on my bum: 1 (Ariadne, the personal space invader extraordinaire!)
Time I plan to leave for work tomorrow: 6am
I am really struggling this evening.
Awake in the Gloaming
Days alive: 12,167
Hours slept: 5.5
Woke up at: 0430
Days till NaNoWriMo: 11 and counting
I apparently accidentally set an alarm for 4:30 in the morning. And then realized my dreams of my alarm going off at three and four am were likely happening. But I was in the middle of a flashback driven nightmare, so going back to sleep wasn’t an option. As such, I’ve been up since.
Sunrise and Samhain
Days Alive: 12,164
Ebooks check out from the library: 6
Lipsticks tried: 3
Halloween costumes completed: 1
Jumpsuits owner now: 3
Story elements plotted: many!
Yesterday was fantastically productive. J and I met up after work for a touch of thrifting and some story plotting.
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