13,869 Days Alive
Edit: forgot to hit post.
I’m in so much pain I’m afraid to eat dinner.
Continue reading “Of Meals and Misery”Of Meals and Misery
Category: Feeling Worthless
Of Noodles and Notebooks
13,842 Days Alive
1 Cup Of Noodles Eaten
I am still working on getting through Story Genius and re-hammering out the story for my novel, Midnight Calls.
Continue reading “Of Noodles and Notebooks”Of Depression and Dinner
13,841 Days Alive
241 Words Written Today
4 Sandwiches Made
So, it’s been a few days since I’ve done a proper blog post. I’ve been fantastically depressed and not feeling up to pouring myself onto the digital page.
Continue reading “Of Depression and Dinner”Prompt Answer: Quote to Live By
Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?
In times of strife or stubble, much like I am going through right now, I bring to mind Max Ehrmann’s poem Desiderata. It is a few years shy of a century old poem, but resonates so strongly with me in so many ways.
One line in particular strikes a chord with me to the point of wanting to get it tattooed onto me:
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
Max Ehrmann, 1927
source: https://www.desiderata.com/desiderata.html
That last line in particular helps me. “You have a right to be here.” I don’t always feel that I do. I don’t often feel like I wish to be here. It’s a daily battle I wage against my own brain gremlins.
I hate that I’m suicidal. It makes me feel like I’m weak or something.
All I can do is keep going.
Of Haruhi and Horchata
13,819 Days Alive
We’re at our Saturday Pathfinder game and I left my new Haruhi Hitlock, my Strix crack shot, mini-figurine at home. Boo.
Continue reading “Of Haruhi and Horchata”Of Dice and Dirt
13,818 Days Alive
2 Empanada Operada Eaten
1 New Mini Figure Received!
The mini-figure for my Pathfinder character, Haruhi Hitlock, arrived today! She’s a crack shot Strix, an owl person, who looks awesome.
Continue reading “Of Dice and Dirt”Of Insulin and Impossibility
13,817 Days Alive
$2,498.90 for One Month of Meds Without Insurance
3 Slices of Pizza Eaten for Dinner
Well, my meds, or my insulins at least, are again financially out of my reach for at least the next six weeks or so. I get insurance on June first. My other meds I can use GoodRx to afford.
Continue reading “Of Insulin and Impossibility”Of Groceries and Gross
13,813 Days Alive
7 Days of Pills Prepped
2 Grocery Stores Shopped
4 Meals Planned
I hate doing dishes. I love having a clean sink and silverware to use though, so I’ve been doing them little by little.
But gods did the sink need a good scrubbing.
Continue reading “Of Groceries and Gross”Of Rows and Rice
13,812 Days Alive
27 Armor Class
5 Rows Added to Junior’s Blanket
Well, my brain gremlins/depression kicked up again. I could barely pull myself from bed today. And ended up needing a nap halfway through the day because I couldn’t keep my eyes open.
Continue reading “Of Rows and Rice”Of Breezes and Bedtime
13,799 Days Alive
1,299 Days Straight on Duolingo
1 New Recipe Tried
I did not get enough sleep last night. I overslept today but was barely late for work. I had to drink a Monster to get through the day, though. Zero Sugar one, of course, but still, caffeine was needed.
Continue reading “Of Breezes and Bedtime”Of Haruhi and Headaches
13,798 Days Alive
1 Mini Figurine Purchased for Pathfinder
Mellon ordered me an amazing miniature figurine for our Saturday Pathfinder game! Haruhi Hitlock is a Strix (owl person) gunslinger. The image on today’s post is of the mini figurine that he ordered.
Continue reading “Of Haruhi and Headaches”Of Nachos and Not Enough Sleep
13,795 Days Alive
600 mg Ibuprofen Taken
4.5 Hours of Sleep
2 Rows Crocheted on Junior’s Blanket
1 Birthday Celebrated
Today is a solid seven on the pain scale and an eight on the discomfort. It’s like my body just decided to throw a bitch fit.
Continue reading “Of Nachos and Not Enough Sleep”Of Marshmallows and Meijer
13,794 Days Alive
2 Grocery Stores Stopped At
1/2 Bag of Broccoli Made
So, I basically made Easter dinner this evening. We went shopping for cheese It’s and broccoli and then came out with over a hundred bucks worth of food.
Continue reading “Of Marshmallows and Meijer”
