Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
12,233 Days Alive
3 Weeks Since Daddy’s Passing
2nd Christmas Since We Got Married
1 Massive Panic Attack
I didn’t sleep well last night. Nightmares aplenty. Of illness and heart failure. Of late night calls and of the funeral.
I wasn’t in a very merry mood this morning.
Days Alive: 12,231
Days Left in 2018: 8
Times I’ve Restarted the Current Shawl: 4
Kitties Alive and Well: 2
Naps Had Today: 2
There’s just over a week left in 2018. Change for the better is coming, I know it.
Days Alive: 12,224
Miles Traveled Today: at last 977 miles
Steps Today: 4,000
Streak on Duolingo: 26 days
I am home again. And heading to bed.
Days Alive: 12,221
Rooms Cleared: 1
Old Belongings Found: a bunch
Days Left in Austin: 2.5
Nails Chipped: 7 lol
Streak on Duolingo: 23 days
Loads of Laundry Done: 2
My body is currently in protest for all the damn things Tink and I accomplished today. And I nearly broke down crying in the bookstore because that was the first time I have gone to a Half Priced Books store without my father or without calling him to check for which books he was hunting for.
Days alive: 12,217
Days till I fly to Texas: 2
Night of Hanukkah: 8th
Cats Snuggled in Close Proximity: 3
Things Accomplished Today: Many
Days Since Loss: 5
I am still really struggling these days.
I haven’t really had the time or opportunity to really mourn yet. I’m hoping my trip to Texas allows me that.
Days Alive: 12,210
Day of Hanukkah: 1st
Sushi Rolls Eaten: 3
Times We Made Andrea Laugh Until She Turned Purple: 4
Caffeinated Soap Nipples Discussed: 2
Day Streak on Duolingo, Spanish: 12
Happy first night of Hanukkah! I’m exhausted, so a quick entry here.
Days Alive: 12,203
Naps taken: 2
Iron pills taken: 1
Lessons completed in Duolingo, Spanish: 2
Current NaNoWriMo Wordcount: 27,881
Words Left to Write by Nov 30th: 22,199
I’m sleep deprived. And my iron is likely criminally low again with how I’m feeling.
Days Alive: still 12,202
Naps Taken: 1
Alcoholic Beverages Avoided: 4
Birthday Parties Attended: 1
Hours Spent at Party: 5
Hours Traveled Both Ways: 4
Oh boy was today interesting. So many tiny humans. So many.
Image heavy post!
Days alive: 12,196
Steps for the day: 1,941
Nightmares had: 2
Naps taken: 1
Baskets of laundry put away: 1
Crochet projects worked on: 1
Still haven’t touched my NaNovel, but today was productive nonetheless. Breakfast, grocery shopping, crocheting; all in all a productive day.
Days Alive: 12,194
Coworkers Out, Sick or On Vacation: 5
Breadsticks Eaten: 4
Hugs Gotten From Steph: so many!
Free Cupcakes Eaten: just 1!
Steps for the Day: 3,451
Both of my coworkers at the new adventure called in sick today, so it was just Miriam and I for most of the day! And I did fine!
Continue reading “Free Food and it’s Finally Friday, Folks!”
Days Alive: 12,185
Word Count For NaNoWriMo: 15,515
Words Left to Write For NaNoWriMo: 34,485
Laps Around the Campus Building Today: 7
Times I Said “Pleased to meet you!”: 27
Slices of Supreme Pizza Eaten: 2
Episodes of Bake Off Watched: 2
Hot Cocoa Kisses Eaten: 4
The third day of my new adventure was lovely! I got the official tour of the facility. Met so many people… whose names I have nearly all immediately forgotten. Ah well. Miriam tried her best.
I wish I could offer some cheerful tripe about how my awesome night of sleep made for an amazing morning, a cheerful day at work, an easy day, and restful evening. But all I can say is that work was good, and I am in vision darkening levels of pain.
Continue reading “Pleasantries, Perspective, Pain Meds, and PBJ”
Days Alive: 12,183
Cups of Tea Had: 1
Tea Bags Shared with New Coworkers: 3
Asthma Attacks: 1, on the way home
Auto Accidents Avoided: 2
Tacos Consumed: 1
Total Word Count for NaNoWriMo: 13,676
Words Remaining: 36,324
I am so sleep deprived. I’ve been up since two am today. Getting through without caffeine has been interesting.
Oh! And I nearly got into a head on collision when someone decided the light wasn’t red enough and they ran it. I jerked my car into the bike lane/right turn lane and managed not to hit anyone. But, the sudden stop and resulting constriction of the seat belt, as well as the anxiety of it, triggered a mild asthma attack. But I’m home now, had my inhaler on me, and I’m fine. No one was hurt, other than my chest a bit. And no one else hit me during my evasive maneuvers.
Continue reading “Adventures, Asthma, and An Almost Auto Accident”
Days alive: 12,182
Words Written for NaNoWriMo So Far: 12,666
Words Left to Write for NaNoWriMo: 37,334
Adventures Had Today: 2
Suicidal Thoughts Today: dozens
Cups of Tea Had: 4 (sweet, chilled kind)
Cats Being Clingy Meowing Jerks: 3
Rough mental day, but I got some pretty nice pictures out of it! Warning, I am currently struggling with suicidal issues. You may want to skip this read.
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