Of Research and Reading

33,420 Words on My NaNovel So Far

12,938 Days Alive

459 Day Streak on Duolingo

I didn’t get the ten thousand words written that I wanted to today. I got lost down a rabbit hole of research. It is highly unlikely I will hit 50,000 words this month. I could cheat, and just say that I did it, but I’m not going to.

It’s disappointing to say the least. But, I can’t win without the words and they just haven’t been there the last few days. I’ve been fighting for half an hour or more only to have a few sentences.

I’m going to aim for writing at least 200 words a day for every day in December. I’ll be posting my daily word count here as a form of accountability. It will be tagged as 200 Words A Day. If it is successful in December and I manage to get all 6,200 words written, maybe I will make that a daily goal for all of 2021. No time like the present to start, right?

In other news, I had therapy with Mx. Steph today. It went well. We did a four count breathing exercise to help me ground and center, And then, we did a visualization exercise. I threw the brain gremlins that were tearing about the Stability Section of my Mental Library, which is akin to BBC Sherlock‘a titular character’s mind palace, to shreds into an oubliette. If you’ve ever seen Jim Henson’s The Labyrinth, you know what I’m talking about. It’s a dark, dank hole in the ground accessible only by a trap door way up in the ceiling. Hoggle described it as “a place you put people… to forget about them”.

Mx. Steph was really helpful in pointing out my manic episode may have been triggered by my fear of losing my job. It makes sense but sucks because worrying about losing my job makes me lose sleep, which in turn makes me less productive at work. Vicious cycle. When I get paid next, I’m going to buy more caffeine pills.

Mentally, I’m all right. Not great, not bad. Just a weird sort of neutral. Stuck in the gloaming of a manic upswing.

I didn’t do any crocheting today. I do wonder since MJ has side-stepped his way out of my life if I should return the yarn I bought for his blanket or just make it anyway and reach out to him when it’s done to give it to him.

Baby Bubbles’ blanket is done, so now I’m working on Little Bee’s. I’m about 1/3 the way done. I’m doing a vertical stripe for her blanket in mermaid colors, a mint green and a dark sea foamy color that almost looks like mermaid tail green.

Anyway, I should get to bed. I’ve got work in the morning and I want tomorrow to be an excellent day.

Take your meds, folks!

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